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2011-01-03T11:38:00.000-08:00

A GOOD YEAR

2010 has been very good to me. and i'll never end the year without sharing some of my favorite pics that my neurons will never ever forget =) . if it does, this page will remind me how blessed i am because of god and people that surrounds me...

NAPA-kasarap na wine, cheese, mud bath and hot air balloon ride, sa NAPA Valley, hehe.

a healing mixture of volcanic ash, natural peat and warm geothermal water creates " my mud", in short, LAHAR!!! over 100 years tradition in calistoga to cleanse the body using mud and minerals. the roman spa is the coolest spa ever =) la akong stocks dito ha.

balloons above the valley : hOt air balloon is not literally hot... can I change this to cold air balloon? 'twas few minutes before 2011. countdown above the countless winery vineyards. memorable and sweet =)my lessons in wine... as evidenced by this picture. I never thought that wines could be sweet , bitter and sour! Hep, hep, hep! this is only wine tasting + cheese tastings ;-) i realized, diko pala kayang patumbahin si daddy sa ganitong mga labanan!

stony point hike with bestfriend bianca is one of my favorite pics. i'll be forever young. yaaaay!
autumn in canada : "when far east meets far west, it's far out!"

meeting jack poole at the torch venue. great canadian. great westeren. great man. the chairman of 2010 olympic and paralympic winter games. *wink!* braving the suspension bridge of vancouver...

many kababayans at canada icon place =)

exploring the rainforest of vancouver...

"where my heart is..." of course, it will always be home. i always say, my feet will bring me to where my heart is and it happens and it never stopped on happening =)

where my heart really is... pictures will never lie! i'll never get tired of looking through it. come on and see for yourself what makes me happy and what made me the richest person in the world ;-)

dad, please smile for littlesis and gil... please?

daddy, please? naku, ayaw talaga... shy lang kasi sya talaga.

finally... tears of joy and heaven knows. and heavens cried!

and so, we are still the "power of 3!". kaaway ng isa ay kaaway ng lahat, hehehe.

see? i'm the richest lady in the world!!!!! ( take note, i did not name myself a girl. my kuya described me as a grown-up. weeee! ). then i forgive the lady who asked for my driver's licence during my latest wine tasting charade ....

the baby became the dashing bride... and soon , come august 2011, the baby mommy! =) and me, the tita-ninang! yipeee. and so, i'm over the richest lady in the world. no doubt i'm rich ;-)

"AIR, WATER , LAND" : Philippines is soooo rich and beautiful!

a memorable parasailing ride with my boracay buddy, none other than kuya pabs =)

a domestic quad ride with my buddy, hehehe. i miss you, kuya pabs ( everyone.... ).

Power of 3 + 1 ( Gil! ). Gil, the best snorkler and swimmer =) Kaye and Daye , the best buko juice drinker. Kuya, the best cameraman, hehehe.

the funny helmet diving.... see my dad? he's scared of the water that he could not let go of my hands!

and some material possessions... i mean pictures that i possessed that i'll never exchange for anything else =) i'm not greedy not to share, hehehe.

Taal Volcano at Tagaytay Highlands, the venue of littlesis's wedding...

CARPINTERIA : no bird soars too high, if he soars with his own wings...

ZION, UTAH

The very name Zion, meaning "promised land", evokes its significance. Seemingly unending desert, that water creates most of what you will see... alive with movement, a river of life always here and always changing.Travel with me! Steep cliffs, narrow canyons, and unpredictable weather... Welcome Zion.
The very name Zion, meaning "promised land", evokes its significance. Seemingly unending desert, that water creates most of what you will see... alive with movement, a river of life always here and always changing.
Travel with me! Steep cliffs, narrow canyons, and unpredictable weather...

KINGS CANYON : Rocks. Waterfalls. Rivers.... not been substantially altered by human intervention, or which persist despite human intervention. Matter and energy changes them..., NATURE

CRYSTAL CAVE : A beautiful walk down the cave...

I've never been inside a cave before, so I don't have anything to compare, but the beautiful running water throughout the caves were really incredible. At times a little scary, but in the fun way =)

In A Land of The Giants ( Sequoia Tree NP ) :
" Big Trees, Small Girl! " , trees that has been living since the time of Christ. Amazing!

2010-07-11T11:19:00.000-07:00

Catalina Island, 4th of July

Otherwise known as "Catherine" Island when discovered by

a Spanish explorer on the eve of Saint Catherine's Day

(November 24). MY ISLAND :-)

2010-06-13T11:25:00.000-07:00

Sana pwedeng ito ang sakyan ko papuntang...

Boracay

Chocolate Hills

Pagsanjan Falls

Taal Volcano

Corregidor

2010-06-06T13:44:00.000-07:00

ALOHA!

Each of us have our own nickname. Mine is Kaye, from Catherine, as my mom and dad smiled when I was born May 23 of 19secret. As each of Hawaii's islands has a nickname. Maui's is The Valley Isle, named for the eight valleys around Halemahina, the name of the smaller of the two volcanoes that make up the island of Maui.

The exploration is one good getaway for my bday! Glad I was on Maui instead of Big Island and Oahu. Who knows, I might go to the remaining islands of Aloha soon :-)

With all the good experiences, good views, good adventures, etc, I don't know where to start. To start blogging how I survived Haleakala Summit, to see the "House of the Sun" I know will be a little bit funny. So I'd rather not start saying that I feel like the "Carebears" touching the clouds in between my fingers and dying myself to death due to frost bite on top of the dormant volcano. I'M RIGHT! I've started it, hahaha. And how can I describe Hana Coast when it is " The World's Most Beautiful Drive". With all the beauty, superlative adjectives are not enough. It is along this beautiful scenic drive that all the spectacular waterfalls, freshwater pools, colorful exotic plants and flowers, hiking trails and endless tropical scenery can be discovered. And I have no idea how I was able to get with the difficult street names of Maui: Omaopio, Pukalani, Makawao, Kula, Haiku, Paia, Peahi, Kahului, Keokea, Ulupalakua, etc, etc, now I know where Avatar got their inspirational names! LOL.

Did you know that 105.5 is the Ilocanos own radio station in Maui? Yes, so many Ilocanos in Hawaii! I was surprised to hear their language upon opening the car radio. But I realized that nothing to be surprised on, as everyday, "kababayang" Ilocanos are the people helping me find local stores, local restaurants and magnificent getaways :-) The history started when hard labor was needed by Hawaii back in the 80's and so they took people from the Northern Philippines :-)

The SEVEN SACRED POOLS, southwestern part of the island. The pools and all other freshwater is considered sacred by Hawaiians as freshwater is the connection to life. The assorted pools and rushing waterfalls , when conditions are good is a great place to cool off with a lazy swim. HALEAKALA, "House of the Sun". See my ist summit certificate? That's how I celebrated the day of my birth date… tiring myself to the maximum, only to see the home of Mr. Sun :-) I was not prepared with the freezing temperature because I was expecting summer, the sun…Thanks to Sheraton's bath robe that I've grabbed the last minute. Hahaha.

ROAD TO HANA, " The World's Most Beautiful Drive". This is all natural beauty out here, with no signs to spoil the view. They say, you have the map! Oh, so, I'm the new " Dora, the explorer". Yaaay! The drive begins in Kahului and ends at the Kipahulu Haleakala National Park. TIME SLOWED DOWN in Hana.
The Sunset at BLACK ROCK, Kaanapali Beach. Puu Keeka, site of many Hawaiian legends. I've watched the torch lighting and cliff diving ceremony enacted by a young man in ancient Hawaiian garb right before sunset.
SHERATON MAUI RESORT AND SPA, my adopive home for few days. Nice of them to upgrade my room to a bech front. THANNNNK YOU!

HONOKALANI BLACK SAND BEACH, Wainapanapa State Park, is set among lava cliffs and the sand is actually small and smooth as they named the beach before it.
MOLOKINI ISLAND, small crescent chapped island in Maalaea Bay. It is the tip of an inactive underwater volcano creater. I saw Anpi and Diownee underwater… beautiful turtle arches , sea creatures and corals. Snorkling here was worth losing my fair complexion, hehehe. Still, tanning did not work, after 3 days, I'm a snow girl again, white as snow. LOL!

LAO VALLEY , a place of significant history. Kamehameha the Great fought a decisive battle here in 1970, conquering Maui and paving the way for his subsequent victory over the island of Oahu, which led to the eventual creation of Hawaii's first unified kingdom. LAO NEEDLE, is one of the Central Maui's historical landmarks, 1,200-foot iconic green-mantled rock outcropping overlooks lao stream.

GARDEN OF EDEN, you'll find native and indigenous species as well as exotic flowers, trees and birds from the South Pacifiec region and tropical rain forests of the world.

KEOPUKA ROCK, as seen in Jurassic Park's opening scene. Beauty!!!
PUOHOKAMOA WATERFALLS, Northeast Maui Region. This is the exact path leading over alongside a fence that will take you to a small lookout where you'll be able to see the fall cascading around 160 feet down the green cliff.
I'm already tired but there are so much more to share. Hay. Hay. Hay. Maybe I could write my Hawaii Part II next time. BYE and I hope you've enjoyed ,me, being a tourist guide *wink *. MAHALO!

YOSEMITE(Yoe-SEM-it-ee)

2010-03-27T11:54:00.001-07:00

Western Slopes of Sierra Nevada Mountain Chain

I sooo love nature that I enjoyed my hike. Hah! :-)

* The El Capitan

* Tuolomne Meadows

* Roof Pendants

* Half Dome

* Giant Sequioa Groves

* Bridalveil Falls ( flows from U-shaped hanging valley created by a tributary Glacier)

* Ahwanee Hotel ( Indian expired architecture. Declared as one of the National Historic Landmark and... declared by me as "hunger point"! Yes, I think this is the hunger threshold that I could still sustain after a long hike. hahaha. )

* Hiking Trails

* Merced River from Yosemite

* Dana Fork near the Tioga Pass

PALM SPRINGS

2010-03-27T11:32:00.000-07:00

Desert City in Riverside County, Coachella Valley

Named "Se-Khi"(Boiling Water) by the Cahuilla Indians (modern indians). A Spanish Explorer once referred the area as "La Palma de la Mano, de dios" or, " The Palm of God's Hand".
* Agua Caliente
* Palm Springs Aerial Tramway ( world's largest rotating aerial tramcars )
* San Jacinto Mountains
* Palm Springs Follies
* Moorten Botanical Garden and Casctarium
* Palm Springs Art Museum

BIG BEAR

2010-03-27T10:45:00.000-07:00

San Bernardino Mountain, San Bernardino County
a territory referred to as "Yuhaviat"("Pine Place") by the Serrano IndianTribes 2,500 years ago.
Are you going to ask me why Big Bear? Or, Did you see enough Polar Bears? YES, in the Big Bear Zoo! Lol. A lot of Bear footprints in the snow , but I'm too tired (not scared) to trace where they'd go. Duh.
* Big Bear Solar Observatory
* Pine Knot Marina
* Big Bear Discovery Center
* Snow Summit
* Bear Mountain (Ski Area)
* China Island
* Bear Creek
* Arrowbear
* Baldwin Lake
* Holcomb Valley
* Juniper Point
* Captain John's Marina
* Alpine Amusement Park
* The Village

What's In My Backpack This Time?

2010-02-07T05:54:00.000-08:00

I remember walking around the busy subways of NYC… with my heavy luggage! I’m an amateur traveler to that… Now, ask me again of “ what’s in my backpack this time?”. I’d say, a big room for new good memories and laughters. That’s all. I’d say ,the rest could be found anywhere =)

Philippines

2009-12-19T07:18:00.000-08:00

My feet is bringing me to where my brain is... My soul is bringing me to where my heart is.

Breaking my silence and accepting the special room in heaven that Papa Jesus has prepared for my loving and verrrrry beautiful lola. It's finally goodbye ; however, this is the happiest goodbye that I've seen in my entire life. Happy voices surrounding my lola... Eternal loves that will be her " baon" along her journey.

Let me tell you something... I don't feel my lola watching me at all. My conclusion : she's very much enjoying the company of my lolo at this time.

City of OxNaRD

2009-12-15T21:57:00.000-08:00

With my sooo-close-to-perfect life...
could not ask for anything more, but a looooot of Dungeness Crabs!!! lol.

"TIME FLIES..."

2009-12-15T20:29:00.000-08:00

Guess who? It's Jaden :)

July 5, '09 : Julie's Baby Shower

July 29,'09 : Welcome Jaden!!!

Dec.13,'09: Jaden's Christening

Ammonite Factory: Canmore, Alberta

2009-11-01T06:16:00.000-08:00

Colourful ammonite gems come from fossil shells of ammonite sea creatures that lived in a warm inland sea 70 million years ago. They are mined exclusively in the Bearpaw formation in SouthEastern Alberta. Recognized as one of the world's rarest gems ( I have it!!!! *wink* ). The value is determined largely by colour.
-----106 Bow Meadows Cres. Canmore, Alberta. ( ammonitefactory@canada.com ).

CoOooL!!!

2009-10-19T16:06:00.000-07:00

2009-10-14T18:15:00.000-07:00

at the palm of my hand...
yes, two little , cute, awesome creatures :) they are capable of striking a chord that i'm living life not as arduous as them. got it? maybe my grounds for this bizarre fondness for tortoises ( ever since! ). feels good to wake-up that i have two little friends -- breathing the same air that i gasp inside my room... atleast i could feel that i'm extraordinary ( we all are!!!) , for the reason that i'm alive ( we all are!!! ), with unique priveleges to move and breathe.

i would really feel bad if i feel that i'm the only one breathing the moment i open my eyes...

2009-10-04T14:26:00.000-07:00

Lone Star State, Dallas, Texas

" Learning is a Journey, not a Destination ."
..... to be able to find the way back home, i need to go out on my own. in the process, a loooot of growing-ups, sooo many realizations, couple of mistaaaakes, at the end of the day... i'm still learning and finding the way back home.

The best of Lone Star State : Gaylord Texan Resort and Convention Center, who adopted me for a week =). Is the " Grandest " Resort in the Great Southwest. Extraordinary dining and entertainment with a Texas Flair. Relax in grand style, Texas Style! Meetings as bold as the Lone Star State. AMA LUR, Contemporary Southwestern Cuisine . In festive courtyard setting, take pleasure in spirited cuisine, live music and specialty drinks under twinkling lights. Not to forget their very unique " Cactus" Bread and " "Rock" Shrimps Hard Eight Pit BBQ, the house of original Texan BBQ's, yummmmy!!! . Riverwalk Cafe, who makes me excited during breakfast =) A market-style eatery, featuring regional foods. Is a reminiscent of the Texas-famed San Antonio Riverwalk. A very beautiful enclosed patio surrounded by koi filled waterways. Texan Station, a state of the -of-the-art virtual sports center. I really enjoyed watching the famous " Dallas Cowboys" in their 52-foot widescreen projection television!! Margarita Bar, the party starts the moment you walk in. I had my first taste of Non-alcoholic Cucumber Margarita =) Pool Bar and Grille, I had fun in their outdoor pool and cabanas... And a looooot-loooooot more.

That's schooling in Dallas!!!.

traveller's clock...

2009-09-27T06:16:00.001-07:00

off to texas...
few hours from now...
flight dizziness...
the traveller who's bestfriend is bonamin.
hay. hay. hay.

2009-09-18T21:53:00.000-07:00

I'm at my happiest in two years....
9:54pm

2009-08-29T17:15:00.000-07:00

"The Girls + Kasee"

life... love... laughters!

2009-07-27T19:01:00.000-07:00

and so i have a life. i'm living my life to the fullest. taking the "shortcut" has been a no, no-- no matter how difficult life has been on the process . and so life has been living within me. it is more than finding out that i can cook the best rib eye steak and filet mignon. ohhh, not to forget the best garlic shrimps ever. duh.

and so i am loved. i'm rich with love from friends and family. million loves from miles away can give strength to conquer one love that fails. million loves can overcome billion of fears. love loves me. love has been living within me.

and so everyday is a reason for laughters. life can make us laugh. love can make us laugh. laughters love me. laughters has been living within me.

" Opposite Time space "

2009-06-08T07:48:00.000-07:00

hola... here i am again venting boredoms—in my little island in cyberspace. this time , it is not 1am, instead 8am. my time crashed and im into the opposite time space. to someone who have invented time clock, these are so totally genius on so many levels. i’m supposed to start the day, but I’m about to sleep… odd!

better sign off now... few hours from now, I will start the opposite of my days =(

*** pictures: torrance ( konsehala's bridal shower ), san fernanando valley, atlantis hall ( konsehala's wedding ), santa monica beach ****

FINALLY!!!

2009-05-31T22:30:00.000-07:00

the fruit of my labor ( naks! ). me and my ist "certified" paycheque. certified? long story. but i know i've worked hard on it. have waited. have cried a lot. then finally... tired eyes but a happy face. i just know i'll be home 2010. yipee!!!

i'm really full of glee. see my pic, yaaaay! now, i can just go to the airport and decide right there and then , where in the globe i will go =) just kidding.

"1/7 Natural Wonders of the World "

2009-05-04T01:20:00.000-07:00

hola friends… i have not been able to think straight this past days ; thou, i’m liking the quiet times i used to enjoy and still enjoying a loooot! ofcourse, i go on my blog where i somewhat can be alone more ;)

my eyes are drooping… i can’t sleep. almost 1:00 in the morning and am still venting boredoms by having big laughs creating a photo collage of my arizona escape.

let me share them to you , the picture perfect views. btw, would you believe me that i’m alone to my mini-getaway, having these numerous pictures on different views? don’t doubt, i've practised photography and have practised lines in my most sweetest way that i could. the mysterious reverse psyche line : “ can I take your group pictures? “. cuidados, salud... dats it!

"Grand" is an understatement =) The sun is mostly over my shoulder, which made me claim its breathtaking beauty! Mighty Colorado River sparkles right beneath my eyes =)
*Grand Canyon , Arizona*
*Sparkling Colorado River*
*Hoover/Boulder Dam*
*Bright Angel Point*
*Bright Angel Lodge*
*Historic Kingsman Arizona*
*Mather's Point*
*Grand Canyon Museum*
*Eagle Rock, Eagle Point*
*Grand Canyon Skywalk Express*
*Nat'l Geographic Visitors Center*
*Lake Mead*
*Grand Canyon Adventure IMAX Theatre*
*Historic Kolb Studio*

“Every day is a Turning Point”

2009-04-07T17:36:00.001-07:00

Two years ago, I take into account a wish fortunately granted. Now, I would say that we should always be careful for great things that we wish for… Papa Jesus is too bighearted to let us down. The “un”fortunate wish turned out to be a spell of everyday turning points! Despite of, I believe that every wish granted is a piece of good fortune, a stroke of luck, a blessing. Not all things will always go our way, or, nothing will ever go wrong again, but--- every turning points has rainbows to believe in, open shields that will become our armors.

Having said that, I need to be extra careful for one special birthday wish. Nothing fancy and spendthrift this time

Obviously, I love pictures. I have numbers of beautiful pictures but I wish they were “perfect”. Perfect in a way that maybe even just one of the pictures should be COMPLETE—daddy, mommy, kuya, kaye and daye. Ironic that our family doesn’t have a family picture when we have lived in one home our whole life All right then, fine, yes, we do have… that was when we were still kids. I WISH FOR THE MOST RECENT. Not an artifact of photoshops, wherein you cut/paste and do a lot of super impositions. If it is not too much to ask… I wish for a family picture taken in Rome and Jerusalem (my mom’s dream country to travel to ).

Papa Jesus, it doesn’t matter when it will be granted… as long it will be perfected in due time =)

Golden City of the North

2009-04-06T21:57:00.000-07:00

Never-ending spring fever is on my heart, as no winter lasts forever... =)
* Golden Gate Bridge *
* Coit Tower *
* Lombard's Crooked Street *
* Fisherman's Wharf *
* Downtown San Francisco Panoramic *
* Twin Peaks *
* " Sea Lebrities "/ Sea of Sea Lions *
* Wax Museum *
* Pier 39 *
* Alcatraz Island*
* Angel Island *

2009-02-14T23:36:00.000-08:00

"our lives are like a candle in the wind, still burns at both its ends, cannot, will not, match the expectation"

"WARM" People in a "COLD" State

2009-02-01T18:45:00.000-08:00

To make a snowball is not as easy as I thought… It makes me numb and surrender. It made me stop and think twice if I really want to finish whatever I’ve started. It was as tough as building trusted friends, building your own life and meeting WARM people in a COLD state along the way. It was like you go or you’d rather pull back.

With all convictions, yes, I may say, it may be hard making a ball from snow, but WARM people were not. They were everywhere! Insight is better than eyesight when it comes to seeing angels undercover.

With all convictions, yes, I may say, I’m not that lucky as others may define what is “luck”, but I was too blessed to be surrounded with the best things in years. You may not be able to put them in a gift bag or be wrapped up tight with a ribbon--- But I’m blessed with too many smiles that say “ I CARE”, hugs given right on time, and hearts that know what has not even been said.

Despite of “WARM” people in a “COLD” state… I’d be more happier if sooner I can share my blessings and be a WARM person in a WARM country (Phil)… to those people I love most … the reason for continuing my dreams no matter how COLD the journey seems to be.

If we had no winter, the spring would not be so pleasant...

"Not While i'm Around"

2009-01-07T19:38:00.000-08:00

happy birthday to my special friend, littlesis, mommy and tita sonn...
listen to my carefully chosen song for all of you =)

*******
to my special friend: more blessings, laughters and love.
they say... " men are like wine. some turn to vinegar, but the best improve with age" =)
*******
littlesis:

she is tall. i am short.
she loves kitchen. i love bedroom.
she loves kfc. i love jollibee.
she is extrovert. i am introvert.
she sings well. i always invite the storm!
her magic sing's score is 90 up. mine, nobody cares.
we are two different personalities but ONE.
she is our little atty. daye. kaye's defendant AT ALL TIMES =)
**********
mommy:

thank you to the ideas of miss bianca gonzalez =)

would you believe me if i tell you that my mom is 71 years old?

every single person who has seen my mom cannot believe that she is 71. my sister and i can't either! grabe, kung sinasabi nila na ang itsura ng mommy mo ang magiging itsura mo paglaki, aba! ang swerte namin ni daye! hehehehe.

*******
tita sonn happy happy bday!!!
" forty is the old age of youth; fifty is the youth of old age ".
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ALL, WITH ALL MY BEST WISHES!!!

2008-12-31T23:59:00.000-08:00

Timed 20 minutes
RANDOM THOUGHTS before 2009…

Some to forget. Some to cherish.

2008 may not be as good as 2007 but I am thankful that I'm BLESSED to be surrounded with “warm” people in a “cold” state.

Shawnee Drive. LearNet and Muai Thai Classes. Puggy. Running around like a chicken with its head cut off. Countless rain showers come December ( however, it makes me senti while driving thru the rain. hehe). Shabu Shabu. Walking almost a mile going to work because of an expensive building parking lot ( need to look for a distant street parking to spare my 15$ a day ). Dr. Zion. Hawaii. My special friend. Being "Jack of all Trades" ( from computer accounting jobs, writing medical articles, web designing,physician assistant, clinical lab scientist/medtech, caregiver, medical researcher to student, NAME IT! haha). Despite of, LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL. February 16, 2008. A borrowed laptop that I messed-up.. A wish for an intelligent invention to cure my stomach-- it always produce "borborygmi" ( my weird and embarassing stomach sound which chooses no time.. hungry or not hungry!!! It embarassed me during a job interview and the doctor offered me some snacks when actually I had 2 Egg Sandwiches, 4 sausages, bacons and muffins for breakfast =). Mommy. Daddy. Kuya. Littlesis. It's not a car. It's not an sUV. It's not a 4x4. It's a HUMMER! Maybe a 2009 white H2 or H3t =) Sandstorm Vegas. Circus2x Vegas. After snow that I felt the indifference and coldness =( " MAYBE YOU SHOULD KNOW" .Auto Body Shop in Eagle Rock . Doing special facial session to someone =) Stardust. October 6, 2007. Walking with Dr. Ruden's Dog.. and Dr. Ruden's strong Jewish personality. Ate Elma teaching me to invest on bonds instead of stocks =) I hope I will learn this side of the crop the best I can. LOLA. Spammers and bad emailers! Teddy. Dr. Ongpauco. North Westlake. La Jolla Cove. I succeeded forgetting unanswered questions at the back of my head-- after realizing that I do not need to know the answers anymore. The answer might be listed in heaven for me to know in God's time... What is important is peace of mind. Happiness is to come next. Positivity and old me is back =) =) =) =) Getting better each day, I think. Tito. Tita. Lloyd. Eric. Konsehala. kuya Edward. ate Sharon. kuya Bebet. kuya Andrew. ate Violy. ate Pat and Ski. Benadryl and Tylenol PM to help me sleep. Tart Candies. Airborne. Milesquare Park. Accord. Element. Gary. Paying the piper. The Dark Knight. Simbang Gabi at Saint Vincent. May your Christmas day be filled with laughter and love. Merry Christmas! Disappointment when I forgot my cellphone on christmas eve ..The Lamborghini guy who gave me troubles. My unforgettable rental car search in a huge parking lot!!! ( I almost called 911 for a carnapped car... ) Triple Jobs. Spare hours spent for a good night sleep. Conchita. Nora. What doesn't kill you will make you stronger-- in struggles, love, emotion, physical, whatever! Walnut. Home. Family. Even miles away, the connection remained the same, thou. My mentor ‘s bad temper in teaching me freeway driving. LA driving. Maturity and Immaturity. Baked Salmon. Eggs. Chicken Nuggets. Classic Polvoron. My mentors on mastering Ebay, Amazon and Craigslist- Mr. and Mrs. Soumekh. My monthly bills!! At home, my dad worries about everything. Just kiddin', dad =) Christmas ( 25th). Whatever floats your boat ;). IELTS exam, etc. Plane Ticket... JP and Jiji. ate Babette and kuya Bong. THE CASTRO clans ( Too numerous to count. hehe). 911 Fire Department paging my plate number (5NXT...) for blocking the way =) TIME IS UP!

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!!!

My friends ( who likes me and who unlikes me).

My family ( we are not rich but they made me one of the richest persons in the world... rich with love and so much care...)

2008-12-31T23:25:00.000-08:00

My Xmas Special Date =)

2008-12-14T14:51:00.000-08:00

VEGAS
Mom heart Vegas...

Mom heart Manny...

Mom heart Manny's brother (beside JP)...

Mom heart Manny's signature...

Mom heart Manny's coach ( Roach )...

Mom heart Manny's personal service transpo...

Mom heart Phil's. V.President Noli De Castro...
Mom heart Richard Gutierrez & Annabelle Rama...
JP and Jiji heart Jimmy Santos...

JP and Jiji heart Julia Clarete...

To top it all...
Mom's heart belong to my dad, kuya, me and littlesis.

2008-12-06T20:42:00.000-08:00

CHARGE IT TO EXPERIENCE

……. “ What Doesn’t Kill You Will Make You Stronger “

It took me days before I get over a vehicular accident… a month after to be exact. I can now chatter about it because the hassles were all over. I mean OVER. yes, OVER. But everyday I will never forget to pray that Papa Jesus would always keep me safe. That He would always prepare my heart…

‘twas one rainy afternoon when a Japanese guy driving a beautiful Lamborghini rear ended me… To be specific: the left , back, quarter panel wheel mouldings! Hellyah with those car parts. My tongue tied when the insurance company was eliciting infos. How do I suppose to know those car terms when I don’t even know what “rear ended” means??? Not ‘til after.

They say, “what doesn’t kill you will make you stronger.” Hmmm… actually, what did not kill me awakened my “sleeping” fear which was long hiding inside my chest. Beginning that day, oh, well, ah.. driving became a challenge. I begun searchin’ the net for the metro bus route . Another problem shocked me—how will I know the countless streets of LA on where to stop. Shall I bring my GPS inside the bus? To make the story short, I tried to use the little braveness left of me. I have decided to still drive.. I drive 5-10mph going to work and to school. I check all the mirrors more than twice. That’s how bad the trauma was. I care less if cars behind me kept on overtaking. Living independently , totally away from friends and relatives , makes you the dependable person for your own self.

We cannot question Papa Jesus why things happen. One philosopher said, there are some things better be left unanswered. He may be right. Keeping some questions in life unanswered will prevent further emotional wound. We move on with questions at the back of our head. At some point in my life, I have made a decision better NOT know the answer to whatever questions that bothered me. If instinct was right and then if it helps believing that instinct.. I have decided to believe that instinct thou it hurt--as long it makes you move on. Let some questions be forever a mystery ( for good ).. so an emotional wound will heal in time. Each day will get us better. The cliché is, things happen for a reason. Charge it to experience.

Story did not end. Hassles begun. I felt like my head became empty. All those things that I have reviewed for months gone! Gone in a split second after the shock. All my unwanted hairs raised-up. All my quarters fell on the floor. I could not speak for few minutes. I could not even get out of the car to talk to the culprit. Accident happens. I never thought of arguing with the culprit in anyways. I never even thought of abusing physical/medical insurance. I should have requested MRI, CTS, PT, etc. But I remember “karma” reverting back “ doubled” . Let the right and the just thing be.

I was hit near my favorite public library. The two Black American librarians saw the incident. They were not my friends ( 'til that day ). I usually see them at the library (the times when I feeeelike being " nerdy ". Let me correct it-- whenever I feeeelike using the free internet..) But we don't talk, yes , we smile to each other sometimes, but those sometimes, I usually feeelike not smiling. Glad to have them both that day. Glad to have some unexpected friends.

To be honest, I have few friends in this foreign country, even after a year. Friends as in friends. Not acquaintance. Not someone whom you exchange smiles with once in a while. Not someone you deal with at work nor in school. Not someone you meet for a couple of times. Not sounds good, but I’m really “choosy” when it comes to friends. I have contented myself with one special friend. Don’t get me wrong. ..I can be a friend to anyone who wants to be my friend =) And because of that, the time of the accident, I do not know what to do… I do not know whom to contact for help. It was an office hour. Everybody was busy. Anyway, the two librarians helped me on the process.

Conchita ,one of the librarians hugged me. " It's been a long time, Catherine” . Yes, she knows my name and I know her name as well. But again, we are not close friends . It’s been a long time and it is unfortunate to see you again in a bad situation. Were you hurt? That sounds so caring. When someone cares, all worries gone. Nora, one of the librarians too, confronted the Japanese guy! I saw the fear on the man's face. Unfortunate for him that he hit me around my territory. Just kiddin'! Let's say, it is fortunate for me to have some unexpected friends around the area. I was still scared and in shock that Conchita and Nora took all the informations from the guy. HEAVEN SENT. I did not know that angels could sometimes be black. I'm not racist ( infact, I like Obama and very vocal admiring him-- not his good looks, but the wit in him ).

I thought everything will be just right. I never thought that claiming the insurance from the Japanese guy’s insurance company will be difficult. The Japanese guy twisted the story. How can he do that? At the time of accident, he even apologized and admitted that he was at fault! They want 50-50 because I have no police report! The details, not important anymore. I know I’m not a good driver in the Philippines beacause my dad used to drive for us way back home… but I can say that I learned to become a good driver away from home . Living and driving by the rules. I owe learning everything to my special friend. My special friend who taught me how to drive with rules and on how to become a defensive driver. I might shame him if I’m not a good driver. I admit that my special friend had the hard time teaching me those learning times because I’m a Philippine driver. But with patience, I’m now driving with my special friend’s shadow. The way I drive is my mentor’s replica ( except for the bad temper , thou ).

On 50-50, of course I totally disagreed. My premium will increase. I will have a DMV record. I seek legal assistance. My boss’s lawyer daughter called the insurance company on my behalf. Legal assistance all for humanity. All for free. After a day, I got 100%.

To make the experience funny after all the hazards… I will never forget the experience of having a car rental. The first day, I forgot to remember the model of the car including the plate number and where I have parked! I have wasted my 30 minutes looking for this rented car =) Yes, I can be a dork sometimes =)

All hassles done. Stress-free again. In this situation , atleast. No more everyday phone calls. No more investigations. I’m back to normal . Normal , thou spare hours still spent for a good night sleep =) Charge it to experience.

2008-11-30T17:53:00.000-08:00

CELINE DION
at Honda Center(Orange County)

Attendance=): tito Erning, tita Delma, tita Espie, mom, ate Babette, ate Lanie, me, Chaldrin w/ ate Tina, ate Noida, tito Nards

2008-11-30T15:51:00.000-08:00

Thanksgiving 2008 and Jiji's 9th Bday
Venue: Ate Babette and Kuya Bong's Place
Attendance =): Chino Hills(ate Tina,ate Lanie,kuya Vann,Caitlyn,Chaldrin,tita Delma and tito Erning),Corona1( Ate Linette and family ), Corona2(ate Karen and family),Gardena(ate Noida, kuya Ernel, Nathan,Eman),Sacramento(ate Joyce and kuya Joey), Merced (tita Espie),Cerritos(tita Nora), LA (present!), Walnut (mom, ate Babette, kuya Bong, JP, Jiji, tito Nards)

2008-11-23T13:37:00.000-08:00

American Red Cross
CPR and Basic Life Support Training

2008-11-09T17:40:00.000-08:00

At all times, I make sure to grab hold of my every funny moments with my mom. When all my memories gone, I’m pretty sure that lookin’ thru all our memorabilia will bring my memories back… Even if not, it will make me smile even without my memories, atleast.

CHANGE

2008-11-05T13:55:00.000-08:00

"If there is anyone out there who still doubts that America is a place where all things are possible, who still wonders if the dream of our founders is alive in our time, who still questions the power of our democracy, tonight is your answer," this guy said.

This guy is none other than-- the new elected , first black commander in chief, 44th president of the United States of America: Democrat Barack Obama.

I have listened to this wonderful acceptance speech several times:)

Last year, recalling one of my entries ( Hillary vs. Obama ) and liking Hillary ( I still do ). At the end of the day, I realized that they were both democrats ( I am a democrat. I am a liberal. Hehehe ). Remembering those special words from Obama " that this election is not about bringing an opponent down but thinking about the welfare of the people "..

2008-11-02T10:38:00.000-08:00

Trick or Treat 2008

It has been a rainy Holloween. Even though, I had a grand time spending the holiday with my little nephews and nieces. Above and beyond, the rain makes me happy. Those happy little faces make me happy. I have contented myself taking them pictures while having their school costume parade. The rain can’t stop them from walking and displaying their cute little costumes. At night, the wet roads can’t stop them from having their trick or treat. I have walked with them and seeing their delightful smiles upon receiving various chocolates and candies make me smile as well. Funny that they usually say, “ Yes, I have scored! They gave us a handful of chocolates. “. But then it makes me wish that I hope I was able to wear my own costume so that I can have my own bags of assorted goodies! At any rate, my pleasure to see their excited faces for their piňata .

Sometimes, adult thing cannot bring you laughters but the kid thing does =) It is easy to laugh and smile when those little genuine smiles , smiles back at you. Yes, even if I have been spending my whole day now in bed because of a bad flu ( Tita Kaye got sick but the little kids were all alive and kickin' hehehe ) …it is worth my time… it is priceless to see those charming little smiles.

2008-11-02T10:20:00.000-08:00

Time Flies So Fast ( "All About Nathan's")

2007

Nathan was inside ate Noida's womb ( Baby Shower )

2008

Nathan's 1st birthday ( The Old Spaghetti Factory )

" Laughter Therapy "

2008-10-29T13:08:00.000-07:00

When I’m stressed , I usually kid around that “I’m a walking disaster!”. My littlesis then told me, “ sino ka si Betty? !”. Yes, I have imbibed the famous line from BETTY LA FEA . Several scenes in this teleserye makes me laugh and smile close to the tragus of my ears. Old aphorism says that, “ Laughter is the Best Medicine”. Undeniably, laughing is a good therapy. And also, the theme song’s implication… remarkable! Sometimes you will aspire that you’d rather be Betty than to have a “face that could launch a thousand ships”.

2008-10-24T09:25:00.000-07:00

" Someday, someone will come into your life and will care for you the way you always wanted... If your someday was yesterday, LEARN... If your someday was tomorrow, HOPE... If your someday is today, CHERISH because you will never know 'til when that someday end. "

"Wild Bears of Arcadia"

2008-10-13T09:51:00.000-07:00

They are my boss’ (Dr. Zion) wild bears...
once in a while they stopover his swimming pool ( when bored in the mountains, ya , they go down only to swim and maybe have a cup of tea .. at the expense of Dr. Zion's vulnerable backyard )

Cute, huh?
; thou, I’m a little bit disenchanted that they’re not the White Panda Bears that I could hug ‘til I get warm.

I asked Dr. Zion whether it is likely for him to put hurdles or barriers that could separate his home to this wild creatures. He said that they could jump from fences and anyway it is his pleasure that atleast some creatures were enjoying his lonely house

Thank you Dr. Zion for sharing your house and your bears.
Honestly, it was my first time to see physically existing wild bears.
COOL.
But the most important thing...
my gratitude to you for becoming my mentor.

"Million Dollars Excerpt"

2008-10-10T00:20:00.000-07:00

An excerpt from my kuya's own blogspot
( please click : DocExtee )

I have read this >50x's :-)

To My Little Sisters
Ten Things I Miss About Kaye...
1. Eating green mangoes with bagoong sprinkled with sugar while sitting on the couch watching television.
2. The quaint naivety uncommon to her age.
3. Her murderous versions of the songs in our videoke sessions.
4. Her leg on my leg whenever we would watch t.v. together.
5. The way she would respond every time our dad would call her "princess".
6. The way she would curl up in bed like a baby next to my mom and daye.
7. The way she eats "krispy pata". The way she munches on the ligaments with gusto. As if she has not eaten for a few weeks.
8. Her deformed finger... it's ugly but it gives her personality.
9. Buying our dinner when we were in med-school together. Of course, she would do the dishes.
10. Her sweetness when she is in the mood, I DON"T MISS, however, the "toyo". It's really annoying hehehe.
Ten Things I Miss About Daye...
1. She's my eating buddy....'nuff said.
2. Kissing her. rarely can I do that now. Dalaga na raw siya e.
3. The way she sleeps. Very similar to the way dad sleeps. Right hand overhead with the right leg elevated hehehe.
4. The way she argues about political issues with dad's friends.
5. Her company here at home. Rarely does she go home now because of work.
6. Watching ASAP with her. Mahal nya si jericho, mahal ko si maja hahahaha
7. How her tears easily fall when she is touched by a movie or even just a scene.
8. Her cooking... she's a very good cook...
9. Her hand massages. Hay hay... she no longer does this to me...
10. Her sweetness and thoughtfulness..."pasalubongs" when she does come home.
I never realized it would be this hard trying to list 10 Things you miss about a person even though you have lived with that person your whole life. I thought it would be very easy and I never was so wrong. But the bottomline is this... I love my sisters and I will forever be a Big Brother to them. I miss and I love you both.

*******
I reposted it...
Kakatouch diba?

And so,
Twelve Things I miss about my kuya...
1. He buys me this huge and addictive Taiwanese Chicken Balls with super spicy gravy.
2. He calls me " p_b_i_a". I call him " p_b_".
3. Our favorite dinner-- "BK's" BarBQ!
4. My leg on his leg during TV time. HaHaHa.
5. Petty fights/arguments na walang urungan. Bwehehehe.
6. Sharing our medschool dorm, shower room,cabinets, study table,books, tv, our double deckies ( that usually awakens him whenever I move around at night. hehehe ).
7. His nakakabilib at nakakahawang appetite. He could eat everything in our table! And even clean our ref!
8. Our " silent" wars ... but most of the times we tend to forget na war nga pala kami. HaHaHa.
9. FISHBALLS, TUKNENE, CHEESE STICKS, SQUIDBALLS, KIKIAM & SWEET CORN. Hay.Hay.Hay. He really spoils me with "sosy" foods.
10. His annoying face when my fortune turtles smell like "burak".
11. He massages my legs for 5 mins and vice versa ( repeatedly 'til we get tired! walang lamangan kasi ay may alarm pa talaga... meron ding "pause " muna . HaHaHa. ).
12. He wakes me up at 9pm to study. Ofcourse I do wake up but I will tell him to wake me up again at 9:10pm... Hep! " Kuya, antok pako, 9:20 na lang po".... 9:30 na lang. Zzzzzz..'Til the PBA game was over and it's nappy time for him as well. Kriiiiiing! " Kuya, morning na la pako narereview". Waaaah! But his assurance that I will always do good in my exams give me confidence. I'll never forget those encouragement whenever I feel so lost in medschool pressures.
As his little sister , I never realized it would be this hard trying to list 12 Things I miss about my kuya. I thought it would be very easy and I never was so wrong. But the bottomline is this... I love my kuya and I will forever be a little sister to him. I miss and I love you.

2008-10-08T00:40:00.000-07:00

" Smiles That Every Momma Could Love "

snap shot with my mini "me" (;-)

little trivia: 1st swimming after 15 years!

2008-10-06T07:05:00.000-07:00

2008-10-04T20:26:00.000-07:00

first drop of the rain. nathan's 1st bday at the old spaghetti factory, fullerton. my new shirt (ty ate b) says, "wishes do come true".

2008-09-22T22:32:00.000-07:00

" Smile That Only My Momma Could Love"

Despite of, she takes all my worries away:)
People come and go to our lives..
The good thing is we can always have a home to come back to :)

2008-08-02T09:47:00.000-07:00

stet? xcope?

if it's only easy to walk on one fine wire...

Fortune Cookies

2008-07-31T21:27:00.000-07:00

One of my weirdest past times is eating " fortune " cookies. I can eat as many of this crisp cookies just for the fun of it and for the " fortune". A " fortune" is a piece of paper with words of faux wisdom or vague prophecy or even numbers that you can use for lotto or whatever!

Kaye: You will make great gains in any project you undertake.
( 12, 23, 25, 30, 44, 12 ).
Ano kayang paroject ito? hahaha! Tatama kaya sa lotto ang mga numbers na ito? hahaha

Jam: Good news will be coming your way, it will be here any day
( 22, 24, 25, 26. 46, 19 )
Wow, whatever it is... sana good news talaga =)

4Lloyd: HAPPY BDAY Lloydie!!!
Your warmth radiates on all others around you
(5,6,7,17,23,22)
The " fortune" is sooooo true. That's very you!!! Can't doubt that, not at all.

4Littlesis : A dream always triumph over reality when given a chance
( 5,9,15,17,18,20)
Littlesis, I wish to have this "fortune" for myself but I prayed for it for you kaya
sayo talaga yan. TIMING *wink* As for the lucky numbers, walang 28. hahaha!

4dada and mama : Share your happiness with others today
( 6,8,13,30,32,9)
Miss you both :(

4kuya: People are drawn to you and look to you for advise
(15,3,8,9,33,2)
Wag lang matters of the heart and money =) Di ba, kuya?

4tita/tita emson: Be humble and take care of your love ones
( 14,12,3,7,17,77)
Hmmm...

4big brother eric: Good things are being said about you
(4,26,32,33,37,5)
Brother, ano pa wait mo, bili na tayo ng lotto ticket. hahaha!

4angela: Cheers to new friendship!!!
Listen attentively. You will come out ahead
(5,14,32,40,43,11)
What is this? Listen to what/whom kaya ito? Is this the sign?

I'm now full after this fortune cookie trippings =)
I had so much fun. Have fun as well!

2008-07-29T10:46:00.000-07:00

mood: "hangover"

after more than a quarter of my lifetime
feels funny that i didn't know that " the dark night"
of gotham city is batman.

not until few days ago!
because i'm not a tv person =)

2008-07-27T13:35:00.000-07:00

paper plates for 45$?
hay, hay, hay, hay!

2008-07-19T21:48:00.000-07:00

" becoming happy for other people
is the beginning of real happiness.."

Independence Day ( and... " It's Not Easy " )

2008-06-27T12:34:00.000-07:00

Mood: i'm having a good smile recalling things :)

July 4, 2008 ( in advance )

Whether you are a dog, a cat, a bird, a rich man, a doctor, a lawyer, a teacher, an engineer, a nurse, or whatever... everything will not all that be easy. Sometimes I wish to become a super hero but being Clark is not even easy after all. And so, I'd rather be my own self =)

(Thanks Five for Fighting for this song. You guys just feel the song and enjoy it as much as I enjoy listening to it several times *WINK*)

Looking back---, few days from now I will celebrate my Independence Day ( oh, no, no, no, I was not released from "correctional " last year! -- to clarify things before I start. hehehe )

US Independence Day ( Fourth of July ) is a federal holiday commemorating the adoption of the Declaration of Independence on July 4, 1776, declaring independence from the Kingdom of Great Britain.

July 4, 2007 when I witnessed for the very first time on how American people celebrates the Fourth of July. My cousin Lloyd ( He is not an American but a partial " Amboy ") welcomed me with fireworks and barbecues. It's an Independence day for me because I will be away from home for the longest time ever. Home is not a kind of prison because I enjoyed being at home-- to clarify things again. How can it be a prison when actually it is where my heart really is? To try being independent, far beyond my comfort zone and to find myself is the bottom line here. The world became a little bit bigger since then...

It's almost a year!!! I have wasted a year of my life but the experience I had is my best teacher. Everything I learned, I learned them the hardieeeeeest way. Life itself is the best school that I ever had!

Apart from good times, challenges can make you stronger. All things in life is temporary. Enjoy things or learn things the best you can because it will not last. What is nice about life is that each day is never like the other. Enjoy whatever that comes your way, whether it's like doing the laundry and whispering like , " I wish nandito si Lola Pining ", preparing tons of medications and patients complaining because of wrong meds! hahaha!, whether it's like watering the plants before you can even study for the next big thing, whether it's like cleaning the car when right back home your dad is doing it for you, whether it's like cleaning the house when someone, somewhere ,not here, can do it for you, whether it's like waiting for the next class again, whether it's like preparing foods and not appreciated, whether it's like looking for the best library all over the city, whether it's like burning your hands because of defogger ( I wish someone helped on that thing... ), whether it's like driving thou your elbow swells ( see those swollen elbows and scars above? that's a day before a big exam that I fell from my 5 ft tall bed! I wonder how I was able to drive for two hours going to my testing area ---while feeling pity that way back home my dad will willingly drive for me), whether it's like feeling sorry that no knight in shining armor during those times, whether it's like celebrating your birthday while " migrating", whether it's like I waited almost a year to be able to become a certified "Californian", and yes, waiting for that ID in the mailbox is like waiting for a Christmas present during my childhood days.

Haay, life of a Cinderella! But as I've said, Life is the besssst school that I ever had =). Yes, I've just said, the " best", meaning , this experience is not so pathetic because I always smile just simply browsing over those pictures above and it continuously reminds me to treat everyone equally and to remain humble wherever life will lead me.

More? Watch this video shot by my cousin Lloyd. I never thought that even filling the gasoline tank is one of the soooo many things that one needs to learn. HAHAHAHA. Have a good laugh as well =)

100 years

2008-04-21T19:14:00.000-07:00

I am in a quarter life crisis... ( and wanna be senti " in a POSITIVE way ha! =))

I wish to have this hundred years...

I have talked to a 15 y/o before and she doesn't care about this song. I probably would not have cared for this song when I was 15! I had to listen to it few times before it sunk in... It drives me up the wall! My idea of life context then is not sufficient to place and understand it. But now I love it a lot as I am moving to almost beyond my own "quarter of a lifetime". Ouuuch!

Gandhi said, "live life as if you will die tomorrow and learn as if you will live forever". I wish to live forever but most people don't get 100 years ever :( In reality we need to make everyday count because it will be over in the blink of an eye. Don't let your life pass you by. After all, we only have one life to live ( I maybe CAThy, but my life is not of a cat ).

100 years really is not that long when you know that's what you've got... like when you were really little and wanted to be grown-up and longing to be young again. ". It's wanting to be older and smarter, and when you make it there, you wish you could go back.

The thoughts of my mom and dad being at their 2/3 of their lifetime makes me feel sick. I suddenly wished that they got married the soonest they found each other. The soonest that we were born, the soonest that we were able to have finished school, the soonest that they can see the fruit of their sacrifices, the waiting and no more waiting. "I'm 99 for a moment, dying for just another moment". In our quarter years, we realize that all that we wanted to do was grow up, and now it's over, there is almost few life to live.. A really awful feeling. But an awesome song!

The song is cute( thanks Five for Fighting). It reached me some place that songs do, just a lot deeper than any other. If I was 15, I would interpret it literally. Like when you find that special someone, it feels like your life goes by and what seems like a second you can age 10 years. . "First you're 15, you're caught in between 10 and 20 "( not adult, but certainly not a kid either). But I am no longer 15!

I dreaded this beyond my quarter years because it makes life more complicated, more responsibilities and more life to be filled-in. But there's no such thing as " If I could only turn back time". We don't have to focus on how messed-up our life is, when no any piece of advise can make us feel better, nor on how complicated things are,nor on how some people can change us in an instant... Just sing and dance like nobody else is watching . Write as if there is nothing wrong. Follow your footsteps. Trust your instincts. Face reality. Live it and make it count.

Here is my special treat ( just in case the meaning still doesn't sink in..). In case that you miss watching Clark and Lana as well. ENJOY it :)

Just in case you wanna play it in the piano :)

and the complete lyrics:

I'm 15 for a moment
Caught in between 10 and 20
And I'm just dreaming
Counting the ways to where you are
I'm 22 for a moment
She feels better than ever
And we're on fire
Making our way back from Mars
15 there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to los
15 there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live
I'm 33 for a moment
Still the man, but you see
I'm a they
A kid on the way
A family on my mind
I'm 45 for a moment
The sea is high
And I'm heading into a crisis
Chasing the years of my life
15 there's still time for you
Time to buy,
Time to lose yourself
Within a morning star
15 I'm all right with you
15 there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live
Half time goes by
Suddenly you�re wise
Another blink of an eye 67 is gone
The sun is getting high
We're moving on...
I'm 99 for a moment
Dying for just another moment
And I'm just dreaming
Counting the ways to where you are
15 there's still time for you
22 I feel her too
33 you�re on your way
Every day's a new day...
1 5 there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to choose
Hey 15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live
June 4, 2008
11:15 A.M.
As I've said, this senti is in a positive way. It's cool to be HAPPY and TRUE... no pretentions, no insecurities, no regrets!
Btw, thank you to all who remember my birthday, to all whom in a quarter life crisis ( it's cool to be true =) never deny that aging doesn't worry anyone ), to all those who likes me and unlikes me, TY so much for remembering!!!! ---Daddy, Mommy, Kuya, Bunso, Tita Sonn, Tito Emmil, Jam, CP, Shawnee patients, Ate Ayeen, Kuya Romy, Lloydy, LloydS Manang Beckie, LearNet Buddies, Joanne's Collection, Fannie, Yen, Ate Ayi, Tony, Tita Beth Stacey, Mike, Althea, Xeth, Alfred, Pearlie, Jess, Henry, RamSirc(Chrismar),Chu,Rovie Joy, Damien, John, ate Babette, ate Janette, Jeff, eric, "ganders", etc.

"Possiblity Thinker's Creed"

2008-04-17T22:37:00.000-07:00

by Dr. Robert Schuller

When faced with a mountain
I will not quit!
I will keep on striving until I climb over,
find a pass through,
tunnel underneath,
or simply stay...
and turn the mountain into a miracle with God's help.

very inspiring, right?

i'd say that to have faced a mountain needs strength and faith. if i faced with a mountain... i usually cry for a while, but i gather strenght to turn it even just into a small hill and then into ash. i most often gets scared, but i trust that an angel will always come down for me. i usually feel helpless but i believe that "the man upstairs" will always step down to lift my fighting spirit.

the best school that we can have is life itself. we learn and ignore and then we learn it again. who cares as long as you believe that to learn it over and over will lead us to the right path. if life can teach us to face mountains, then life can teach us to climb it as well :) who says that you cannot quit? you may, as long as you promise yourself that you will turn back after a rest. i know that to rest is like giving-up... so it is better to rest in between the climb.

if faced with the impossibles... pray for a miracle to happen and it will happen. there is none like the most powerful person up above who can make things possible. again, "as long as you believe". i want to believe for whatever mountain that is. i believe.

share some used-to-be impossibles :)

An Initiation

2008-04-09T06:47:00.000-07:00

Everyone will experience one or more initiations in their lifetime. This is not to test how brave we are, but to test if we can make it.
I know I am brave... but I am not really sure if I can make it ( through it all! ). One of those
"chickenings " on my bone is " FREEWAY". I came here without fright of driving, but too many CA rules eat-up this bravery :( Driving is necessity that one has to overcome this so-called "FREEWAY-FEAR" ( the rules, being pulled-out by the police, fast and beautiful cars, fines, revocation of license and LIFE itself). But as I've said, I already chickened-out since the first day that I came here from the L.A. airport. ( but not to the side-streets thou). But then again, as I've said , everyone will experience different kinds of initiation one/more times during the duration of our lifespan.
In short, my initiation is my own fear! Conquering L.A. driving-fear makes me complete ( half- complete thou). Lucky me to have two kinds of navigator : (1) an innate nav (2) a very talkative human nav [ yes, even more makulit and hyperstrict compared to an innate nav. *wink*wink*). The situation feels funny because of too much assurance/protection/guide or whatever. Nevertheless, I appreciate both of them ( kahit minsan I have to swallow pride because of some obvious mistakes).
Keep right/left, maintain your lane ( you're eating-up their lane!!! tsk.tsk.tsk.), watch your speed ( you're overspeeding... you're too slow! hmmm... aye, aye, sir! ), be alert on merging lanes ( give way... alam mo ba yung symbol? actually, FYI I scored 35/36 on my written exam at DMV , syempre hindi ko pwedeng sabihin yon kasi mali talaga ako:)), release your gas and be ready to slow down ( may eye problem ka ba at hindi mo nakikita na all cars started to already press their brakes? tsk. tsk. tsk.), NEVER, NEVER CUT other drivers ( my first mistake : ay, sobra yata akong nasabon dito... Filipino driver?), etc, etc, as in etc. I hope to remember all those things ( by heart ). To remind myself that this is not home country where I can be " astig" is a big challenge. My human nav told me that always think that I am a new driver. I am guilty beyond reasonable doubt. I am doing it my way. I reasoned-out my way because I have lived-out my " kaskasera " attitude, careless and selfish driving the day I was allowed to drive. To live by the rules is sometimes necessary as well...

Palpitations, tachycardia, hypertension, dyspnea, chestpain, all that it takes!
MY INITIATION :)

share yours :)

SpRiNg GeT aWaY

2008-04-04T20:38:00.000-07:00

one spring get away with my dad...
crystal cathedral tour...
malibu...
santa monica mountains...
bottom line : dad came here to watch pacman...
bye dad....

2008-04-01T20:47:00.000-07:00

who would believe how serious person this little gal right beside me?
cOnGrAts to our little aTtOrNey:)
we are all so proud of you!

love,
mommy, daddy, kuya and ate.

BLOGGERnating....

2008-03-09T21:52:00.000-07:00

Puggy : Ready ka na ba for the exam ?

Kaye : Waaah!

Puggy : Anong iniiyak-iyak mo dyan?

Kaye : Hindi pa nga!

Blogger hybernating :(

'til next time!

Hillary vs. Obama

2008-03-09T21:24:00.000-07:00

Mood : saddened by US 2008 Primary Election...

I think both bring a lot to the table. I just think Hillary would be a better choice. Win or lose, I am her ultimate endorser. But then again, I also admire Obama, not because of his good looks but because of his wit and wisdom. I will always remember a good statement from him, " that this whole process is not about putting an apponent down but rather lifting the welfare of the people " ( not exact wordings)

Di masyadong obvious?
This is one of my pictures with Texas Congresswoman Shiela Jackson Lee.
Thank you to kuya Jan and KaLIPI( Kabataang Liberal ng Pilipinas ) for a wonderful experience at Texas, attending the IFLRY ( International Federation of Liberal Youth) and YDA ( Young Democrats of America ) convention.

I am not good in politics but learning it is not a lost.

Confused on being on the medical side or rather be in the political side?
I maybe both .
In my blood runs the genotypic-politician :)

" My Bestfriend's Wedding... etc, "

2008-03-09T20:11:00.000-07:00

Mood: Medyo tampo...

" If I had only one friend left, I'd want it to be you ".
A famous song which always reminds me of my bestfriend. She wrote that message in one of my slum books years, years ago pa. Medyo slum book freaks pa kami that time :). Over-used mesage but it remained in my heart na talaga. As in parang sa akin lang sya talaga dedicated from my bestfriend, LOT, Balot, Lolot, Leonora, Ma. Leonora Dayao, or, whatever.

I have met some friends along the way, she met too many friends as well, but she remained " special " ( and i hope i remained " special " as well). We don't see each other frequently as most bestfriends are, but as I've said, she's " special " :). I even dared to study in Baguio City, just to be with her. With her, daring being alone for the first time. I remember how difficult adjusting without parents around, but she made it easy for me. She cooks for both of us most of the times, the times na medyo guilty talaga ako beyond reasonable doubt. Fresh pa talaga sa memory ko yung favorite nyang iluto, " adobong sitaw" and pancakes:). Even the laundry yata ay ginagawa na rin nya minsan ?

Because of so much adjustments with my school schedule, rainy seasons ( na ang tirahan namin ay nasa bundok talaga and before pa ako makarating sa school is I'm ALL wet, as in wet talaga... mag-hiking ba naman ako papuntang abangan ng Jeepney?). I have decided to transfer in a real dorm ( minus her ) where everything has been provided ( foods, laundry, walking distance from school ). But as I've said, kahit di kami nagkikita ay nagkikita pa rin. We have this friendship connection that whenever we need each other ay kusang merong signal. Sometimes cannot be reached ( kasi 5 cell phones yata ang nawala ko sa Baguio, sobra kasing "smart" ang mga snatcher and holdaper sa bundok, kahit pa Globe-fanatic naman ako eversince ), but at the end of the day is can be reached pa rin. Ewan ko ba, nahahanap at nahahanap pa rin namin ang bawat isa. After college, post-graduate school, and until now na mas madali ang communication because of electronic mails, etc,.. the friendship connection is still strong and getting stronger :)

Haay... I really miss the times na magkasama kami. The last time was, we aren't sure if we are going to see each other pa ulit. We enjoyed the day. She's a terrific guide for a lousy driver like me :) Medyo wala kasi akong alam sa pasikot-sikot ng Manila. She's my funny eyes :) Lahat yata ng street sa Rotonda ay napagtanungan namin kasi ay hindi rin pala nya alam ang pasikot-sikot ng Manila. Haha. Katwiran namin is hanggang SM EDSA lang kasi ang malapit from Fatima. Possible kaya na magkaroon ng navigator sa Pilipinas? Anywei, nakarating naman kami in-time to our agenda ( after nga lang ng ilang paikot-ikot-ikot-ikot sa Rotonda ). I can't explain bakit parang ayaw naming maghiwalay that day ( almost 3 hours yata kami sa Starbucks on our way home just to be with each others company), yun pala ay matatagalan na ulit ang aming pagkikita...

Medyo tampo ako? Well, she promised me lang naman that I'll be the first person to know if she's going to get married na to her long time sweety... Would you believe that she hid it beyond my knowledge? Umaasa pa naman akong maging bride's most beautiful bridesmaid. Hahaha. Anywei, for some personal reasons which I am not entitled to make kwento... she got married na nga beyond bestfriend's knowledge. Ang layo ko kasi sa kanya. Wait ko na lang ang pagdating nya dito for complete details. And baka maging bridesmaid na ako for a second wedding ? Ehem, ehem, ehem! Ay, onga pala,baka hindi na matupad ang dream kong maging most beautiful bridesmaid because of religion conflicts. Pwede bang kahit buddhist or muslim wedding na lang ay extra pa rin ako? Just kiddin'.

I asked permission from her na rin for this blog entry. Angels are really in the air lately :) Gets nyo na ba? Yes, she's having an angel, este angels pala. I am happy for these two angels in her life ( monozygotic-monochorionic twins ). Syempre, months pa naman before dumating pero I'm glad na before dumating ay nasabi na nya sa akin for me to announce it to the whole wide world :) . And syempre , wala na akong tampo kasi she said that I'm one of the first persons na unang nakaalam ( other than first degree family )... first degree friendship naman kami :). At syempre ulit, nag-isip na naman ako ng mga names na bagay sa mga bagong angels nya... Medyo nahihirapan akong mag-isip ngayon kasi baka puro pangalan ng mga ibat-ibang diseases ang mga mai-suggest ko. Maybe some other time kapag tapos na exam ko :)

Congratulations bestfriend! I am really happy for you :)

Monochorionic monozygotic twins - 1% of identical twins wherein splitting of zygote happens very late resulting to shared placenta and sac. Sweet di ba? Inside the womb pa lang ay talagang share na sila in everthing ( oxygen, food, fluids ) :)

PeTalk

2008-03-04T16:50:00.000-08:00

Kissy: Ouch! Why did you bite me?
Puggy: Don't worry... I had shots with my veterinarian.

Kissy : Shots for what?
Puggy : For anti-rabies.
Kissy: Rabies?
Puggy: A Rhabdovirus sometimes present in some animals. It can cause influenza-like illness. striking mood changes,pharyngeal spasms with drooling of saliva, seizures, coma and death.
Kissy: How will you know if one animal has the virus?
Puggy: Well, get my head and look for Negri bodies ( intracytoplasmic-eosinophilic inclusions which is pathognomonic for rabies infection.
Kissy: Groooosss! Ei, why did you bite me? Are you depressed?
Puggy: Waaaah!
Kissy: Don't cry... You're forgiven for biting me. Now, can you tell me your problem?
Puggy: The first baby of my veterinarian died...
Kissy: So?
Puggy: They were blaming my girlfriend PussyCat. Though, they're not sure if she's really the culprit!
Kissy: Can you explain the details?
Puggy: The baby was born with hydrocephalus and cerebral calcification. They said, PussyCat has Toxoplasma gondii infection ( extracted from contaminated food with cat feces ).
Kissy: Grooosss! Maybe your vet is not practising hygiene?
Puggy: I don't know... But she's a vet and she 's handling cats and dogs everyday.
Kissy: Sad... share something more, Puggy.
Puggy: I heard that she had prenatal check-up during her 1st trimester of pregnany, no complaints but with mild CLAD ( cervico-lymphadenopathy).
Kissy: Was she prescribed with meds?
Puggy: Yup, Spiramycin. But she's noncompliant!
Kissy: So, it's not your PussyCat's fault .
Puggy: I don't know... I'm sorry for biting you. Did I hurt you?
Kissy: Don't mind me. I'll visit the doctor for injection ( protection ).
Puggy: Thank you, Kissy!

Primary Polydipsia ( excessive thirst)

2008-03-01T13:54:00.000-08:00

My tita had prepared "big" dinner for our mentally-ill patients. But 30 minutes after dinner, i noticed patient "X", a.k.a. " Baho", kept on drinking glasses of water... I asked myself if he was not satisfied with the served dinner; hence, trying to become full by drinking " agua of life"? A bigger than usual chicken leg, mashed potato and vegetable salad? My conclusion might be incorrect.

Hmmm... after dinner he also took some medications. One of his meds is Thioridazine (Seroquel). Actually, Psychiatry is one of my neglected subjects during medskul! I kinda forgot this kind of drug that I looked-up few minutes ago in one of my reviewers. Aha! May I diagnose "Baho" with due respect to his personal Psychiatrist? Or, I'm sorry if my diagnosis wasn't right. Dx: Primary Polydipsia Secondary to Anti-psychotic Medications.

Patients taking antipsychotic drugs can have dry mouth, promoting sensation of thirst for one of the side-effects :)

Thioridazine ( Seroquel) - is a Phenothiazine, one of a group of tranquilizing drugs with anti-psychotic actions thought to act by blocking dopaminergic transmissions within the brain.

2008-02-28T22:00:00.000-08:00

i'm reviewing behavioral science right now...

ALTRUISM
- an ego defense
- guilty feelings alleviated by unsolicited generosity toward others.

eg.
A GMA boss makes large donation to Charities, Blinds, Churches and Poors (CBCP)

Mood: bwahaha

" A,B, ZTE, FG, H,I,J,K,L,M,N,O,P,Q,R,S,T..."

2008-02-28T21:54:00.000-08:00

Ooops! hindi sa akin ito ha :)
This is Red's little angel :) And look for the YS, yun na yon :)
Inaako ko na kasing maging story-writer ng buhay-buhay ng mga HS friends ko :)

2008-02-25T20:14:00.000-08:00

"The Spiderwick Chronicles"

2008-02-21T20:04:00.000-08:00

On my readings today...

" The Good Samaritan Law "
-states that stopping at the scene of the accident to render care is not required, but that once physician initiate such care, they must practise within their confidence and may not abandon the patient.

Hmmm... that reminds me of my favorite Korean telenovela, " Love Story in Harvard ". Story of love and dream pursued by foreign students studying in Harvard University. Lawyers and Doctors combined. I remember cramming for the medical boards but I've wasted 2 days finishing the DVDs ( that was last year). That's how I got fascinated with their witty, scripted lines :)

Hmmm... " Good Samaritan law " reminds me of how my pride got endangered years ago, inside an "FX" on my way home. Faced with a choking emergency from an old lady who's eating " rambutan ". Everyone got panicked because she could not breathe... everyone looked at me because of my white uniform...Yes, oh, no, I was only a first year medical student then... to make it short, I flushed and panicked. I'm "hyper"aware of what will happen when your brain is deprived of oxygen, but, I don't know what to do to help her have the oxygen back in her system :) Fortunately, fate was good enough that the old lady has good reflex and was able to throw-up the " rambutan". Duh.

Im sure tempted na kayo to watch this telenovela:)
i will appreciate if someone can translate this song :) anyweiz, thanks to you tube:)

" The McNaughten Rule "
- the most abused insanity defenses.. it acknowledges that people may not realize the nature and consequences of their actions because of mental illness.

Hmmm... no comment.

" Tarasoff I "
- requires that physician warn a potential victim if tney truly believe the patient will cause harm to the person.

Hmmm... no comment.

" Tarasoff II "
- states that even though physicians must warn a potential victim, they must Also protect that patient from that person.

Hmmm... di ako nagmamarunong :) di ko lang kasi ma-remember mga laws na ito kaya i typed it to help me remember :)

I dedicate this entry to my littlesis. Miss na talaga kita...

2008-02-21T18:54:00.000-08:00

" hamburjer"

my friend, eric, asked me to go to his blogger site to see what's in the "hamburger" you tube. i laughed not because of abalos repeatedly saying, " hamburjer ", but... it reminds me of my daddy who used to pronounce it the way abalos did :) so, i don't really care " hamburjer"/"hamburger", whatever! as long my daddy will always come home, " anak, may burjer akong pasalubong ", or, " mga anak, kahit tayo ng burjer sa jollibee " :)

2008-02-19T20:43:00.000-08:00

CARDIJN HALL

The hall that reminds me of mixed " independency " and " martial law". And , reminds me of how many friends you will meet along the way.
Yesterday, I was able to talk to a " Cardijnian"... She's so grown-up! ( Janette G.). Years back, I remember her as someone who is a " baby" and calls me, "ate". Now, I have to change the image that has retained to my memory :)

Thank you "Friendster" for my SLU Cardijn Hall "links" : Rosas, Laarni, Janice, Janette, etc.

2008-02-17T19:39:00.000-08:00

A.S.A.P. Break :)

" Wise men says that only fools rush in "

Thoughts:
I maybe a fool, too?
I do not mind, not at all.
We are all entitled to some craziness once in a while :)

ANGELS ( " are in the air" )

2008-02-15T19:08:00.000-08:00

Mood : Happy for my dear friend, Red.

This all started when Krishna M., from my elementary years, talked about her four year old kid. Wow, as in wow, that was really amazing. I consider having a kid as like having an " angel ", that watches you grow as a responsible mother. Giving you the guide on how to share loves, loves and more loves. Teaching you on how to care, care and more care. Reminds you of patience, patience and more patience. Krishna told me that having a kid eats up all your time but it makes you happy in the end. I believe her ( though I can't relate at this point of my life, not yet ).

A college friend, Vida S., told me a week ago, how her baby has grown-up so fast. She actually did not notice how time flies. I believe her too. Some " angels" can make you really selfless and forget how complicated life can be.

Just received a friendster mail... sounds-like, " I'm a lotto winner!". Yes, my friend, Alfred M. did win... an " angel " in-disguised. I can feel the joy in his heart ( though I can't hear his voice ). The way he had broken the news ( actually, very good news ) said it all. A new "angel" in his life ( next to his beautiful wife) completed him. I suddenly think of countless names for his future " angel". Aaa... " Ninio?", "Red?", " Al?" " Fred?", etc :)He suggested that I train for OB-Gyne and his wife will be my first patient.. Hmmm.. oh, well, I suddenly think twice. How can I possibly hurt someones own " angel" ? Now, I realized million possiblities that awaits me. Responsibilities that are even greater when you're doing it for some people close to you. That scares me oftentimes ( and hundred times).

Hoping to hear more "angel" news:) ehem, ehem, ehem! Pearlie? Engr. Lloyd and Grace? Kambal Sherwin?

2008-02-10T10:17:00.000-08:00

" If people talk negatively about you,
LIVE in such a way that no one will believe them.."
- a forwarded text message from a friend

I liked the simplicity of that statement. Sometime in our lives, we experienced some horrible gossips to ruin our pride , but then it strenghtened us towards the end of the day. We focused and worked hard on making ourselves as our own compass to ignore false lies. Laugh :) Believing that under our pocket was the truth. Believe in " karma" reverting back as quick as the soundwaves. Humility by not fighting back for revenge can always bring good " karma" and integrity of the heart and soul.

Thoughts:
Through it all, remain positive.
As many people will love you, just as many people will think that you are rude and crass.

2008-02-10T10:07:00.000-08:00

mood: on releasing stress

"yoga", este scenic rides pala :) and food trips!

2008-02-08T19:47:00.000-08:00

senate mood:

everything is really just " window dressing " for the actual question :)

i like lacson's " window dressing "
i agree with chiz's " window dressing "
i love madrigal's " window dressing " ( though not because of judai)

i'm not good in politics but i have the heart to understand...

2008-02-06T13:26:00.000-08:00

How come that some people can be so greed?
130M$ commission?

Didn't they know how hard to earn 80$ a day for some people? some 50$ or less... ?

La Jolla Cove, San Diego

2008-02-04T20:02:00.000-08:00

Though I fancy the white sands... But the small beach tucked between sandstone cliffs in Southern California amazed me.

i simply love the sunshine on my face. and the sunset as well! foot struggles at the cove. my buddy loves my back? my face? revealing my serious buddy:) la jolla cove birds. the birds with my buddy:) enjoying the slippery cove! doggie lovers... doggie abuse? he simply loves his accord!
rest at last. la jolla sunset minus us. my buddy striking a killer pose :) loving our shoes... the senti la jolla bird... the senti shoes... and the senti jam! we're hungry-- thanks the spot.

Thank you Jam! You're a nice paparazzi.

2008-01-31T19:40:00.000-08:00

sana maganda wifi connection...

GANDHI

2008-01-25T19:27:00.000-08:00

" Live as if you were to die tomorrow.
Learn as if you were to live forever. "

--- GANDHI

" The Most Beautiful Woman "

2008-01-21T11:43:00.000-08:00

My mom. Can't believe that she's getting more beautiful thru the years. Can't see her outside floss because her beauty comes from within. A beauty that doesn't fade. Pure soul and a loving heart.

It's funny kidding her about being " fat " but I love embracing her softness :)

I always joke about her wrinkles, but those were laughing lines that can ease
worries :)

I always tell her that I don't like to have her eyebags in the future, but those were the eyes that taught me how to write, read and see everything :)

She's conscious about her grey hairs but I see those as beauty and wisdom :)

I wish to have her height, but she'll just tell me that I'm pretty good with how I looked :)

Many will take a second look to her varicosities... mind you that those legs stood tall and worked hard for the benefit of countless people :)

She forgets things but remembers love and care all the time!

The beauty that doesn't fade...
The only inheritance I wish to have.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PO MOMMY!

2008-01-16T16:10:00.000-08:00

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LEA

2008-01-09T14:31:00.000-08:00

Iv'e been so negative lately... alone, tired and scared...
But listening to her music and good sense of humor made things liter.
She WOWS the crowd even without back-up dancers, without the usual fabulous costumes/dress and without the full sets of majestic orchestra.
The very simple suit, innocent looks and innocent voice made the concert remarkable.
Idol ko talaga sya eh :) kahit ano pa man!

Unfortunately, she did not sing my favorite song :(
The song that keeps me going thou I'm scared, alone and tired.

Thank you Jam for the surprise concert treat :)

And advance happy birthday!!

2008

2008-01-01T14:14:00.000-08:00

mi amigo, mi amiga ( my friends ),
este anio ( this year )...

mas or menos de ( more or less of ):

bueno personas ( good people )
verdadero rico ( true wealth )
bolsas de dinero a ayudar ( bags of money to help )
controlar de envidear ( control of envy )
adios ansioso ( good-bye worries )
salud/estado fisico ( health )
interminable amor ( endless love)
corazon desgarrar ( heartbreaks )
perfecto novio/novia ( perfect boyfriend/girlfriend )
verdadero belleza ( real beauty )
sin precio alegria ( priceless joys )
inteligente decision ( intelligent decisions )
bueno trabajo ( good jobs )
y de dolor ( end of pains )
suerte ( luck )

BUENA SUERTE ! ( GOOD LUCK ! )

Feliz Nuevo Anio! ( Happy new Year!)

" SCHIZ "

2007-12-21T19:47:00.000-08:00

They look normal... celebrating a pal's birthday.

Schizoprenia is a psychological disorder associated with disturbed behavior lasting more than six months.
A condition based on inherited physiological structure of the brain; particularly in the areas of the brain which involved perception, there are too many neurons and in other areas of the brain there maybe too few. It is a " double edged sword" according to one psychiatrist. On one hand it may be desirable to have increased mental processing power for rapid processing of perception; on the other hand, it opens the door to mental overload.

One schizophrenic patient caught my attention one late evening. He told me that everyone is going home this coming Christmas and he will be left behind. He got no family... I told him that he is not alone. My family is not here too... We are the son and daughter of Emmil and Sonnia ( my aunt and uncle) temporarily. HE SMILED. A reaction that warmed my heart. He has feelings too! Feelings despite his pathetic condition.

I'm living with my aunt and uncle in a mentally ill facility for months now. I'm not used to it before.. before that I can't understand special patients like them. I've experienced a clerkship/intership rotation in a mental hospital in the Philippines but living with them is not part of the deal. I'd say that I'm here living with them up-close-and personal. I see them everyday. Deal with their tantrums. Listen to their fears. Share with their joys.

Patients like them can make me smile unconsciuosly. The sounds of their voice can make me stop and listen to their conversations. Their childish attitude can make me stop and watch them for few minutes of laughter. THEY CAN MAKE ME HAPPY.

I told myself that I can be their friends. I know them!! I know their likes. I know what irritates them. I know what worries them. I know if they were hurt..

" Baha" : He is my favorite patient. Don't ask me why "Baha". :) He spares me from cleaning the facility. He has no family who can give him extra cash so my aunt and uncle gave him the cleaning job for his vices like coffee, cigarettes, more coffee and more cigarettes!( provided he is in good mood). He loves music. If only I'm allowed to show his music video shot by my cousin Lloyd. He knows how to play with songs and cords. Chocolates and candies can make his day. I remember his happy face when I gave him a bag of chocolate for his 46th birthday. He loves staying at the "patio" and turning on our Christmas lights. He had the habit of throwing away his jeans and jackets whenever in bad mood. Sometimes he answers you with " I don't know" though he knows it. He is not selfish. He shares his coffee and cigarettes to other patients. Never cares if he has nothing for the next coming days.. We give all our recyclables to him for extra dollars at the end of the month. He is sweet. I don't know why I describe him as sweet but in general he is really sweet. Sweet voice, thoughtful, caring, etc.

"Baho" : The most charming of all our patients. I remember one of my cousins having a huge crush on him :). All patients eat " Dinuguan" except for him. They call it " Chocolate Meat". Haha. You can't wake him up without counting 1!2!3!. He takes his shower early because he can't get his one pack of cigarette without taking his shower FIRST. He loves super hot Doritos and Cheetos. He enjoys loud music. His roommate is always complaining about it. His mother and siblings love him. During his last birthday, he asked his mom for money ( directly said). My aunt told him not to ask money just like that. He replied, " It's my birthday!") He was right. It was his birthday. The mind of a six year old.

" Ponjab" : He is rich literally. He can buy everything that he wants ( though not needed). He is always picked-up by a Mercedez or a BMW. He always claim that he is a law student!. He loves reading books. He is always at his play station. Always sleeping. Actually, I think he is not that sick.

" Kalbo" : He is the long time driver of my aunt. Moody but tolerable. He is always the first person in line during BF, lunch and dinner. He had Diabetes and always had the feeling of hypoglycemia. He loves watching our Christmas Tree. Loves drinking tea, tea. tea and more tea. Thank God that he never smokes. I think too that he is not sick. But people of their kinds are unpredictable. Living with them is always watching your own safety.

" Katokling" : My aunt coined that name because he is always knocking in our room. He knocks whenever my aunt is asleep or half-asleep. He has this very loud and tensed voice. Always complaining of auditory hallucinations. " Someoneone is always attempting to shoot me!" He is a one-day-millionaire! A bad spender! His temper is not good that's why my uncle is always ending up arguing with him. He is our worst patient.

" Lolo" : He is a concrete example of an Obsessive Compulsive Psyche Patient. You will admire his cleanliness and being organized. Organized bed, shoes, pens, papers, etc. WOW talaga, as in! He loves arts. He has this complete sets of drawing pads, coloring pens and pencils. He has this grandeur illusion that he is rich and a famous military man. He even shown me a small notebook that looks like an algebra notes which according to him is a military code/secret code in a war he attended. That reminds me of Dr. Nash of the movie entitled "A Beautiful Mind ".He always argue with my aunt because of coffee, cigarettes and money for McDonalds... A problem child! A problem grandpa pala with the mind of a six year old again.

" Chabelito" :A typical example of psychiatric disorder with suicidal tendency. He was recently admitted at the hospital because of attempted drug overdosing. Because of too many vices, he attempted of stealing many times. He was reprimanded and no one knows what's next..

By no means, we can't judge them. They are also victims of circumstances. They did not choose to become who they are. Genetic factors outweigh environmental factors in the etiology of Schizophrenia. Presents earlier in men. Understanding and emotional support is what they need. Discipline them if needed. Love them if they lack love.

And you'll realize that you can love them too nang hindi pilit.

"A Beauitiful Mind" : And it was a miserable life...A movie years ago that fascinated me. It is full of wit, humor and pain. The major role was portrayed by Russel Crowe ( Dr. Nash) who is an intelligent Schizophrenia victim. In the movie, he won a Nobel Prize for the development of ecomnomic theory which led to the respect of his colleagues in a university where he teaches. I wonder if one of our patients here can win a Nobel Piece too. He experienced brain overload that caused dangerous paranoia and delusions, delusions so powerful that he became a danger to himself and his family. Advance state-of-the-art meds can do the impossibles. Meds is the keyword here. Plus community integration, support , tolerance and cognitive therapy.

happiness...

2007-12-15T20:33:00.000-08:00

i was surprised when one of my friends told me that i looked happy with my friendster pictures. i started to ask myself if i am really happy. am i? masaya ba talaga ako? siguro sa gitna lang. neither unhappy but neither too happy. i realized, mahirap pala magbalanse ng buhay! happiness depends on how you define it. merong definition na too personal, too emotional, to spiritual, too physical, too materialistic, to selflesss, too literal and meron pang too happy and too weird.. sa iba't-ibang tao, iba't-iba rin ang definition. happiness is important to everyone. defining it is easy and yet hard. pero ang mahalaga, one can be happy in different ways. hindi pa naman end of the world if in one aspect of your life ay 'di ka kuntento. marami pang paraan para kuntentuhin ang kulang. ang feeling natin na kulang sa atin ay maaaring kalabisan na sa mga kapos-palad ay dapat rin natin isaalang-alang. ang daling sabihin pero mahirap gawin :(

my mom defines happiness in too selfless way. basta masaya kaming magkakapatid at si daddy ay masaya na sya. ang simple no? simple joys pero ang sarap damahin. minsan isusubo na lang nya ay ibibigay pa sa amin. " mga anak, ano na ang gusto nyo for BF, lunch and dinner?". kapag shopping time, kami new shoes, new dress, new lahat pero sya next time na lang daw. kaka-guilty di ba? can't help but admire her ng sobra-sobra and i wish many times that i can be like her. as in idol ko ang mom ko. meron pa, happy rin sya kapag nasa church at naglilinis,, helping other people at kapag ang mga former students nya ay naaalala sya thru simple friendster message. so easy to be happy pala basta selfless ka.

my dad is the male version of my mom. happy sya basta happy kami. happy sya bringing food-to-go foods in my dorm nung nag-aaral pa ako. kahit pa sobrang ma-traffic at mabaha sya sa valenzuela. notorious ang valenzuela sa mga serious problems na ito. haha. happy sya cleaning my car ( everyday pa talaga ). happy sya being the driver of the family for a long time. happy sya cooking our sunday meals. as i've said, he is my mom's male version. kaya... happy sya sa kung ano-ano pa basta happy kami.

" sonria, ahorre aun mas " ( smile save even more), "ciempre precios bajos" ( always low prices). ito naman ang definition ng mga taong shopping addicts or pati na rin ng mga in-need of groceries, clothes, meds ( sini-sale din ba ang mga meds? i wonder...), etc. sino ba naman ang ayaw makamura? too materialistic type of happiness, but still happiness. di tayo pwede mag-judge ng ibang tao kasi marami pang ibang definitions other than that.

i define happiness na sobrang babaw. isa siguro ako sa mga taong mabababaw. i care less as long as i'm happy at walang tinatapakang ibang tao. i'll do whatever that can make me happy and nobody can discourage me ( thou minsan i'm close to giving-up na talaga but i'm still here, go pa rin). maraming "crabs" everywhere and you'll never know talaga who's with you and who your friends are. merong moments na binabaligtad ka to push themselves up. making up stories from their insecurities. pero tayo lang naman talaga ang pwedeng gumawa ng sarili nating happiness. wag na lang intindihin :)

i have a friend whom i always called , " miss perfect ". perfect ang beauty, perfect ang attitude and perfect pati ang brain. pero she can't define happiness. too emotional kasi sya about everything. gusto nya everything is perfect kahit almost perfect na talaga. nahihirapan tuloy syang maging happy.

merong ibang tao, happy sila kapag nasa itaas. may power, may posisyon at may "say" sa lahat. totoong happy kaya sila? di kaya sila natatakot na maraming naiinggit?

i know of a "princess" who defines happiness in too literal, too weird and too happy way. sabi nya ay happy na sya with nuggets, flowers and silence. actually di naman talaga sya weird, mababaw na tao lang din siguro sya. simple lang ang kaligayahan sa buhay.

yung iba naman ay simply happy surfing and learning thru the net, answering emails, chatting and spying. i'm sure happy sila. ginagawa ko rin kasi:) but.. i often ask myself if i'm still happy for the wasted times?

its normal to wish for a big and beautiful house, nice car, expensive jewelries at kung ano-ano pa. kaya lang more of everything ay more worries din, di ba? ang hirap talagang maghanap ng happiness kung materyal na bagay ang definition ng happiness.

many girls ask for beauty. kaya nauso ang mga retoke because of love of beauty. admit it or not, some people die of this so-called beauty. care natin, happy sila sa ganon eh.

sa mga pilantropo, bilib talaga ako sa mga kaya nilang ibigay. madali naman talagang magbigay at maging masaya kung meron kang means. minsan gusto ko rin maging milyonaryo para maging pilantropo. pero naisip ko, kahit namn di mayaman ang isang tao ay pwede pa ring magpasaya. in simple ways na di kailangan ng "means".

sa mga kahanga-hangang doctors, happy sila kapag happy ang mga patients nila. happy in a way na gumaling sila, murang "professional fee" at bumabalik ( kahit pa ang dala sayo ay itlog, gulay, chicken na buhay at kung anu-ano pa). reality bites ito sa mga doctors who dedicated their lives in the province. sabi nila sobrang happy sila kahit hanggang ngayon ay commuters lang, outmoded cell phones, etc.

ibat-ibang happiness...

want to share what makes you happy?

" the man upstairs "

2007-11-28T23:19:00.000-08:00

shhh.... i told him to sleep coz he's tired. he's sooo sensitive even to the slightest of murmurs. attentive to every bit of favors. listens to those who believe.

i know he won't get tired but the man upstairs got very busy watching over me the whole week. even more busy this morning when i took the board exam! i know he's been there guiding me ( all the way!) together with his beautiful " birdies "...

i woke-up today with fear heading to my testing center. i admit that i'm not prepared. i review but situation makes it hard for me to concentrate well. sleepless nights due to overseas calls from the philippines especially at dawn for updates regarding my lola's condition. timing wasn't right coz worries bites. my family and some relatives are much luckier i think. they'd say that they were tired shifting at my lola's bed but being there can release worries and being far away can hold the tension. they may be having sleepless nights but its much better than having sleepless night at my end. anyway, " the man upstairs" takes good care of my lola. she's well now.

i'd say that other than that, simple things destructed me. pity that i'm reviewing while people around me has been enjoying the " thanksgiving sale ", wrapping gifts for christmas and chatting as if i don't exist. oh, go away please ! mentally ill patients roaming around everyday, asking for coffee, chocolates and even asking me to alter his jeans for it's expensive for them to spend 6$ for alteration of their 12$ pair of jeans. i can tolerate that because i'm now learning to love special patients. they can even make me smile unconsciously while listening to their " deep" conversations. a friend who kept on telling me how great his day was, shopping to the max, party with friends and you're not involved either. GREAT! this review was sooo sooo great. i can smile now coz " the man upstairs " did a good job for me. i passed as what the computer monitor told me =).

having said all of that, let me share with you my tough story this morning. i woke-up too early for tita beth can only drive me at her convenient time to my testing center. thank you tita beth. i owe you again. i waited for an hour before my exam starts. thanks to my new found friend, greg, who kept my mind busy away from my exam worries. the grandest scenario of all: the proctor did not allow me to take the exam because of wrong ID's brought with me. she told me to show more ID's. whaat? my wallet was at the facility. tita sonn brought it for me exactly the given ultimatum time. heeew! feeling was like i'm having temporary amnesia and i could not remember all the things i've been reviewing for quite a while. the whole time i was waiting outside for tita was like waiting for the boss to arrive. thanks tita sonn and to ken too who drove my tita. i was then allowed to take the exam.. after reading the first question--- hu hu hu, i don't know the answer! next, next, next, am still not sure of my answers. i got panicked and prayed. i told myself that i have to pass it coz tita sonn woke-up early too to prepare my pandesal with sunny-side-up egg and ham. tita beth was not able to drive her son to school.. and ken was not able to eat his breakfast on time due to my emergency errand. i thank all this people from the bottom of my heart." the man upstairs " panicked too. hehe. THANK YOU.

Please Read...

2007-11-18T13:57:00.000-08:00

thank you to my bestfriend Lot for sending me this touching story.
our family needs it right now.

A DAD'S STORY

On July 22nd I was in route to Washington, DC for a business trip. It was all so very ordinary, until we landed in Denver for a plane change. As I collected my belongings from the overhead bin, an announcement was made for Mr. Lloyd Glenn to see the United Customer Service Representative immediately. I thought nothing of it until I reached the door to leave the plane and I heard a gentleman asking every male if he were Mr. Glenn. At this point I knew something was wrong and my heart sunk. When I got off the plane a solemn-faced young man came toward me and said, "Mr. Glenn, there is an emergency at your home. I do not know what the emergency is, or who is involved, but I will take you to the phone so you can call the hospital." My heart was now pounding, but the will to be calm took over. Woodenly, I followed this stranger to the distant telephone where I called the number he gave me for the Mission Hospital. My call was put through to the trauma center where I learned that my three-year-old son had been trapped underneath the automatic garage door for several minutes, and that when my wife had found him he was dead. CPR had been performed by a neighbor, who is a doctor, and the paramedics had continued the treatment as Brian was transported to the hospital. By the time of my call, Brian was revived and they believed he would live, but they did not know how much damage had been done to his brain, nor to his heart. They explained that the door had completely closed on his little sternum right over his heart. He had been severely crushed. After speaking with the medical staff, my wife sounded worried but not hysterical, and I took comfort in her calmness. The return flight seemed to last forever, but finally I arrived at the hospital six hours after the garage door had come down. When I walked into the intensive care unit, nothing could have prepared me to see my little son laying so still on a great big bed with tubes and monitors everywhere. He was on a respirator. I glanced at my wife who stood and tried to give me a reassuring smile. It all seemed like a terrible dream. I was filled-in with the details and given a guarded prognosis. Brian was going to live, and the preliminary tests indicated that his heart was OK, two miracles in and of themselves. But only time would tell if his brain received any damage. Throughout the seemingly endless hours, my wife was calm. She felt that Brian would eventually be all right. I hung on to her words and faith like a lifeline. All that night and the next day Brian remained unconscious. It seemed like forever since I had left for my business trip the day before. Finally at two o'clock that afternoon, our son regained consciousness and sat up uttering the most beautiful words I have ever heard spoken. He said, "Daddy hold me" and he reached for me with his little arms. [TEAR BREAK...smile] By the next day he was pronounced as having no neurological or physical deficits, and the story of his miraculous survival spread throughout the hospital. You cannot imagine, we took Brian home, we felt a unique reverence for the life and love of our Heavenly Father that comes to those who brush death so closely. In the days that followed there was a special sp irit about our home. Our two older children were much closer to their little brother. My wife and I were much closer to each other, and all of us were very close as a whole family. Life took on a less stressful pace. Perspective seemed to be more focused, and balance much easier to gain and maintain. We felt deeply blessed. Our gratitude was truly profound. The story is not over (smile)! Almost a month later to the day of the accident, Brian awoke from his afternoon nap and said, "Sit down Mommy.. I have something to tell you." At this time in his life, Brian usually spoke in small phrases, so to say a large sentence surprised my wife. She sat down with him on his bed, and he began his sacred and remarkable story. "Do you remember when I got stuck under the garage door? Well, it was so heavy and it hurt really bad. I called to you, but you couldn't hear me.. I started to cry, but then it hurt too bad. And then the 'birdies' came." "The birdies?" my wife asked puzzled. "Yes," he replied. "The birdies made a whooshing sound and flew into the garage. They took care of me." "They did?" "Yes," he said. "One of the birdies came and got you. She came to tell you "I got stuck under the door." A sweet reverent feeli ng filled the room. The spirit was so strong and yet lighter than air. My wife realized that a three-year-old had no concept of death and spirits, so he was referring to the beings who came to him from beyond as "birdies" because they were up in the air like birds that fly.. "What did the birdies look like?" she asked. Brian answered, "They were so beautiful. They were dressed in white, all white. Some of them had green and white. But some of them had on just white." "Did they say anything?" "Yes," he answered. "They told me the baby would be all right." "The baby?" my wife asked confused. Brian answered. "The baby laying on the garage floor." He went on, "You came out and opened the garage door and ran to the baby. You told the baby to stay and not leave." My wife nearly collapsed upon hearing this, for she had indeed gone and knelt beside Brian's body and seeing his crushed chest whispered, "Don't leave us Br ian, please stay if you can." As she listened to Brian telling her the words she had spoken, she realized that the spirit had left His body and was looking down from above on this little lifeless form.. "Then what happened?" she asked. "We went on a trip," he said, "far, far away." He grew agitated trying to say the things he didn't seem to have the words for. My wife tried to calm and comfort him, and let him know it would be okay. He struggled with wanting to tell something that obviously was very important to him, but finding the words was difficult.
"We flew so fast up in the air. They're so pretty Mommy," he added. "And there are lots and lots of birdies." My wife was stunned. Into her mind the sweet comforting spirit enveloped her more soundly, but with an urgency she had never before known. Brian went on to tell her that the "birdies" had told him that he had to come back and tell everyone about the "birdies." He said they brought him back to the house and that a big fire truck, and an ambulance were there. A man was bringing the baby out on a white bed and he tried to tell the man that the baby would be okay. The story went on for an hour.
He taught us that "birdies" were always with us, but we don't see them because we look with our eyes and we don't hear them because we lis ten with our ears. But they are always there, you can only see them in here (he put his hand over his heart). They whisper the things to help us to do what is right because they love us so much. Brian continued, stating, "I have a plan, Mommy. You have a plan.. Daddy has a plan. Everyone has a plan. We must all live our plan and keep our promises. The birdies help us to do that cause they love us so much."
In the weeks that followed, he often came to us and told all, or part of it, again and again. Always the story remained the same. The details were never changed or out of order. A few times he added further bits of information and clarified the message he had already delivered. It never ceased to amaze us how he could tell such detail and speak beyond his ability when he talked about his birdies. Everywhere he went, he told strangers about the "birdies." Surprisingly, no one ever looked at him strangely when he did this. Rather, they always got a softened lo ok on their face and smiled. Needless to say, we have not been the same ever since that day, and I pray we never will be.
You have just been sent an Angel to watch over you. Some people come into our lives and quickly go...Some people become friends and stay a while...leaving beautiful footprints on our hearts ... and we are never quite the same because we have made a good friend!! Yesterday is history. Tomorrow a mystery. Today is a gift. That's why it's called the present! Live and savor every moment...this is not a dress rehearsal! THIS IS A SPECIAL GUARDIAN ANGEL...
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our lola has her special angel too... but always remember that guardian angels love a family who loves each other back. times like this would mean stretching our hands and taking time-out from our busy lives. presence and support from each other can touch the roaming angels of our very own lola and find their way in our lola's place.

the phenotypes... the 50% castros's

2007-11-16T20:05:00.000-08:00

w/ jp and jiji

we are the 50% phenotypes ( phenotype = genetics expressed / observable trait and characteristics) of our mother's maiden name. jp and jiji ( castro-padpad) and myself as ( castro-tolentino) and, by the way, i'm proud carrying my dad's family name!

sometimes people wish of something that they do not have... prominent nose, deep-seated eyes, fair complexion, good heights, etc, etc, etc. oo0ps! be careful of something that we wish for. sometimes we are given things that's good and fair enough for us.

wondering why all of a sudden i'm telling you all this? not because i'm sour-graping for my inherited trait but i'm proud with what i've inherited. i know that jp and jiji are proud too =).

p.s.

happy birthday jiji!

How's Your Halloween?

2007-11-03T19:45:00.000-07:00

I'm afraid to ask my family about their long Halloween weekend. Obviously , I'll envy the tradition we used to have : buying candles of different colors, sizes and shapes, preparing chips and snacks for a " picnic" at the cemetery ( ooops! I'm sooo sorry about that, but its only our way to pass the time while praying for our loved-ones), enjoying the sight of beautiful arranged flowers everywhere, and most of all-- seeing some old friends doing the same thing =).

It was my first time to celebrate a different kind of Halloween...
So, how's my Halloween?
Let me share it with you..

Jam, who's always been my shadow lately treated me to a Halloween Park-- KNOTT'S SCARY FARM as people called it. Its a cool park I think! ( thou I wasn't get scared at all). I enjoyed watching girls (" the damsels in distress" ) screaming and running because of some costumed monsters jumping from fog-laden streets and alleys=). Am I that brave? or, just trying to be brave ?

i think i'm brave!

In general, I enjoyed the treat ; however, there was not much time to enjoy all the themed rides and mazes, scare zones, enetertainment and shows. I'm the modern Cinderella who needs to get back home before 12 midnight. HaHaHa.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=69-BxmUY2Dk
Halloween is a shortened term for " All- hallows-even" as it is the eve of " All Hallows' Day" or popularly known as " All Saints'Day". Traditional activities includes "trick or treating", costume parties and visiting " haunted hauses".

" Trick or Treating "

This is a picture of a mom with her daughter in a costume for " Trick or Treating". I enjoyed the eve of October 31 because of lovely costumes everywhere, happy kids knocking on our door saying " trick or treat! " with their bags and baskets asking for chocolates and candies. Special thanks to Gary, our special housemate who's been assigned to distribute candies for kids knocking in our door every 5 minutes.

I wish I'm still a kid so I can have those treats. HaHaHa

Born Catholic

2007-10-29T08:00:00.000-07:00

For the past four months, I've been visiting Crystal Cathedral ( non-sectarian church) because my tito-tatay and tita-nanay are Protestants. I can't complain with their ceremony because it was more livelier than my own Catholic ceremony. The programme was well prepared. I think the performers are really preparing for that occassion... even the " Pastor" who really is prepared for the " sermon".

Having said all of that, still i always feel sleepy!! So I've tried hearing mass again in a Catholic church in Santa Barbara ( sometime in August). The ceremony was so solemn and serious but I was not sleepy the whole time... HaHaHa. Same thing with yesterday when I hear mass in a Catholic church for the second time. I lack sleep because I was so homesick but I'm so attentive in the mass thou I can't understand the priest because of a "Mexican Twist" tongue.

Maybe...
Born Catholic? Yes, I am.

Fighting For Foods

2007-10-21T18:41:00.000-07:00

I've read a sad news about my country just today. 'Twas about a beggar who was pushed away by the security guard while trying to get some left-overs from one of the famous fast food chain in the Philippines. He was whom the people called " taong grasa". Actually, being beggar is not good when you do not looked as if you are one. I mean the beggar who is more stronger and healthier than I am right now! But this " taong grasa " was more than just being a beggar. He has some mental incapacities that he cannot even be in good grooming ( taong grasa- literally covered with black oils but just an exagerration of a person whom you cannot be recognized because of dirt all over his body) , not because he cannot afford to buy his necessities but there's really something wrong with his mentality. Knowing this, a " taong grasa" can also feel desperate hunger... He fought for his food though not his, but mind you that those foods were left-overs of those who can afford =(. A little bit of understanding is what this kind of people deserved. We belong to a third world country as what racist usually referred to us. Sad. Perhaps because aside from our government cannot take good care of our mentally ills, we ourselves sometimes cannot adjust to a pity situation I've mentioned..

This pity scenario reminds me of how some territorial animals fight for their own foods too. Fighting for food is sometimes a necessity that one should understand.

Let me share with you my self-made video of how one fight for foods. Don't forget that we are humans and not ducks. Human have feelings... Humans will not risk fighting for food without desperation. Learn how to know the needs of others before they made their self desperate and you've done nothing at all =(

Enjoy watching!

" Sabado Night "

2007-10-21T17:12:00.000-07:00

Santa Monica Pier is located at the foot of Colorado Avenue in Santa Monica, CA. The place has many attractions like amusement park, pacific park, arcades, entertainers, pubs and restaurants.
I enjoyed the place because it reminds me of "Perya" in the Philippines =). It brought back the years where I can be the happy-go-lucky kid that I used to be. And, thanks to Jam for trying all the games just for a piece of toy. And for the nice food too! I forgot the name of the resto-bar but they really served delicious shrimps.

A Text Message

2007-10-18T20:40:00.000-07:00

Thrice today that I've received a circulating/forwarded text message from colleagues in medskul:

Dr. Burke ( Grey's Anatomy ) : The most interesting about heart transplants is that one completely looses his own heart and be replaced with someone else's yet still has the feelings for the same person he loves. Love works in the minds of the people and not in the heart. Love is a state of mind.

I adore Grey's anatomy for all its meaningful messages other than seeing myself in the story most of the times.

Wishes Are For Free

2007-10-18T20:23:00.000-07:00

I was raised well to love my family above everything. I wish for everything that can make them happy. Wishes are said to be wished upon a star. Stars are in heaven. I'm scared of too much heights. But I always wish and dream high for them.

If wishes are not for free.. I'd buy the sooner I can!

1. I wish to become a millionaire... not for myself but for my family and relatives.

2. I wish of a grand travel vacation with my whole family ( daddy, mommy, kuya pabs and my littlebabs)

3. I wish I can send some " deserving " cousins to school ( wait lang ha? ate Kaye is still working on it. )

4. I wish for a " Medical Firm" ( Kaye and Extee's Medical Clinic and Daye's Law firm)

5. I wish I can buy a vacation house for mom, dad, pabs and littlebabs. ( Papa Jesus, kelan po kaya yon?)

6. I wish I can buy my kuya a new car, lots of perfumes, lots of watch and lots of shirts. hehehe

7. I wish to become the big sister for my littlebabs

8. I wish I can return all the good deeds of my tita Sonn and tito Emmil.

9. I wish that mom and dad will not get older... as well as my tito-tatay and tita-nanay.

10. I wish to become a doctor for ALL races..

Make A Difference

2007-10-17T07:14:00.000-07:00

I was finishing my Doritos Chips when i finally noticed something at the back of its bag...
" Make a Difference!"

A larger view?
MAKE A DIFFERENCE!
If you want to make the world a better place, get out there and do something! It doesn't matter who you are, everyone has the power to make a difference. Just find the cause that inspires you and believe in your ability to help. Don't live your life on the sidelines, get involved and make your mark!

NICE and VERY INSPIRING...
get involved now!

Dove Milk Chocolate Message

2007-10-15T08:09:00.000-07:00

I concur!

Alopecia Areata and Lloyd's Blonde Wig For Me

2007-10-11T19:00:00.000-07:00

My younger cousin Lloyd is truly one sweet person. One day he surprised me with a curly, blonde wig!
:)

Other than being surprised, I wonder why a wig? I got paranoid at first. Maybe, Eric, my friend, told him that his cousin is always problematic with her falling hairs? Or, maybe she heard me the other day that I wish to have a curly hair ( not blonde thou ). Anyway, he told me that it is for the upcoming halloween. Whaaat? It is only October! No matter what the reasons are, he made me smile coz he knows how to make a surprise in a sweet naughty way.

And so what's the connection of Alopecia areata to my new wig?

I was diagnosed of an autoimmune disease called Alopecia Areata Monolocularis eight years ago. That was wayback my college years. So? Big deal? Ofcourse! I remember having psychological low self-esteem because of that. Not to forget the trauma of having so many scalp corticosteroid injections and countless medications ( immunotreatment with Cyclosporine, Minoxidil and Fluocinonide )! Thanks to my mom who finds time travelling to Baguio every other week to accompany me to my doctor. She witnessed every bit of pain and tears I had during those regular check-ups. My doctor is really nice; however, I usually pray that a week is more than seven days to avoid this stressful weekend with my nice doctor.

So what is this Alopecia areata? As I've said it is an autoimmune disorder. Autoimmune is wherein the person's immune system attacks their body, in my case, my hair follicles. T-lymphocytes cluster around these follicles, causing inflammation and subsequent hair loss, described as minute, soft, bald patches in the scalp. It is not contagious or hereditary but associated with increased risk of developing other autoimmune diseases like SLE, hypothyroidism, allergies and other atopic dermal ailments. Also, my scalp burns more easily. This explains why I love wearing caps and hating the sun at the same time.

I survived months of treatment. But an autoimmune disease is something that cannot be cured; however can be treated and the hair can grow back. In my case, it is always recurrent. It is no longer something new but it still bring worries to me. The reason why I got paranoid when Lloyd gave me the wig. I hope it's not really for me to use, Lloyd ? :)

BMI ( Body Mass Index)

2007-10-08T07:09:00.000-07:00

There is one commercial in the Philippines that caught my attention :
( " Fat is OUT, Thin is IN "). So? It has been my problem losing weight... Maybe I don't take much effort doing it ? or, maybe the slow metabolism is inherent to me? On both sides, frustrating!

Body Mass Index
a.k.a : Quatelet Index
- it became popular in the early 1980's as obesity became a discernible issue. It allows health professionals to discuss over- and under-weight more objectively because it provides a numeric measure of person's " fatness" or " thinness"

BMI = weight in kilograms /height in meters square

Normal Values :

Caucasians : 20-25
Asians: 18.5-22.9 ( Normal )
23-24.9 ( Over weight )
>25 ( Obese )

My BMI : 50 kgs/ 2.40 = 20.8

.. glad that I'm still within the normal limit :)
still I have plenty of unwanted fats :(

ei Tart!

BMI : 77kgs / 3.3 = 23
I can't believe your result. And, I don't trust my number ability! Kaya nga di ako nag-engineering nor accounting. haha. Please check if you have time...

Anyway, if my math is accurate, don't worry. BMI computations has limitations. Its accuracy is easily distorted by some factors such as fitness level, muscle mass, bone structure, gender and ethnicity. Mesomorphic individuals tend to have higher BMI than endomorphic individuals beacause they have greater body muscle mass and bone structure.

Or, maybe it's the other way around.
What I meant is...
Maybe you already belong to the " Westernized Society!"
Review the normal values above.
Values differ among Caucasians and Asians.
Are you?
Here's your classifiacation if you admit that you are. Just kiddin'.

Starvation: <15
Underweight : 15-18.5
Normal: 18.5-25
Overweight : 25-30
Obese: 30-40
Morbidly Obese: >40

" Our " Park and " Our " Duck :)

2007-10-07T18:48:00.000-07:00

Mile Square Park

Located at Fountain Valley, CA. Stretches over 640 acres of land. It includes two lakes (one is "ours"), three golf courses, baseball and softball fields, picnic shelters, urban nature area( one is " our " tree), recreational area with tennis courts, basketball courts and racquetball courts.

History:
In 1942, the navy purchased this agricultural land as an auxiliary for Naval Air Station, Los Alamitos. ( Wikipedia ).

BEFORE SEPTEMBER ENDS

2007-09-30T17:36:00.000-07:00

HapPy BiRtHdAy AnGel LouIs!

Bye Dad...

Byes and smiles? ( 4:00 AM )

I think I was wrong when I said that I'm not going to be sad when my dad will leave for Canada then back to the Philippines...

I've experienced a weird feeling at the airport when my dad had already checked-in. ( 7:00 A.M.)

Scared of being left alone.
And the feeling of wanting to go back home...

Morongo
Thanks Jam!
I'm afraid that my luck was all transferred to you :)

Disneyland
is most certainly a land of enchantment where the children and the young at heart find that dreams really do come true.

Thank you kuya Vann, ate Tina, Chaldrin and Caitlin!

San Marcos, San Diego

Thank you ate Janette and kuya Reuben.

I enjoyed staying to your amazing house :)

I now miss Madie and Matt.

SeaWorld
- is a chain of marine mammal parks with some thrilling rides.

I love Shamu, Shamu, Shamu!
Getting wet was fun.

SeaWorld is not complete without riding the Atlantis.
A combination of roller coaster and splashdown ride.
Thank you ate Janette for riding with me.
You really is our one and only tutor :)

Oceano Sand Dunes of the North

Thank you JP and Jiji for a memorable RV experience

Thank you Kuya Bong for a bumpy off-roading :)
I had fun!

Pismo Beach: my look-a-like?

Universal Studios
a.k.a. Universal Pictures
Universal City Studios
... is one of the major American film studios.
Among my favorites is Shrek.
I love the ogre :)

My new crush ?
Who cares being the meal when the vampy is really a hunk :)

What makes it memorable is the presence of my dad.

Thank you ate Babette for being our tour guide :)

Who Is My Dad?

1. He is Mr. Conrado Gonzales Tolentino.
2. The responsible husband of Mrs. Flordeliza Tolentino.
3. Who raised us well {Ian ( aka: extee), Kaye and Daye.
4. A VERY simple man.
5. Education is his highest priority.
6. I think he is a proud dad. Dad ?
7. The "boss".
8. Strict, disciplinarian, a paparazzi !
9. A good drinking buddy :)
10. A frustrated smoking quitter... :(
11. My frequent suitor during my dormitory days.
12. ... with my food- to- go dinner!
13. Who does the marketing every Sundays.
14. Who cooks as well every Sundays. Ha Ha Ha.
15. Who cleans my car.
16. Who sometimes clean my aquarium.
17. Who loves us dearly.
18. And, I'd die without him...
19. A new member of the senior citizenship club.
20. Happy 60th Birythday !

September 12, 2007
1020 South Shawnee Drive Santa Ana, California, 92704

Highlights:
1. Meeting the Castro's :) ( Fact: I'm 50% Castro! )

2. Meeting the Silverio's and the Padpad's :).
Ate Babette is always special to us...
My dad and mom really loves her.

3. Meeting Jam ( the tall, lean guy on my right side) after 12 years. ( Fact: My LCS-B schoolmate)

VEGAS

2007-09-06T22:23:00.000-07:00

can't believe that i'm teaching my dad gambling here at the " sin city " or the " entertainment capital of the world"...

thanks tito emmil for teaching me how to use the "slot machine "( american english) or " fruit machine" ( british english ) or the " poker machine" ( australian english ).

i'd say that " beginner's luck is true " for winning 135$ out of my 20$

now it's time to teach my dad...

"begginer's luck " gone for losing 5$!

" LEARN HOW TO START BUT KNOW WHEN TO STOP "

ViETnAmEsE TeRriToRy

2007-08-30T18:50:00.000-07:00

BOLSA, Westminster City

It feels like home inside this place... people of my height, color of my hairs, my eyes and my very Asian complexion. You'll never feel racism because you all looked exactly the same. I ate our own " Balut " and " Puto "; other than Vietnam's famous noodles. It's been a long time since I've eaten those foods that Americans usually referred to as " barbarics ". Ha Ha Ha. Who cares when I'm inside Asian's territory ? I did not even see a flesh of either blonde nor red heads!

BOLSA is a lovely community of Vietnamese people. They did not come in US the way other migrants came. They are nation of refugees 30 years after the fall of the Saigon government. You can trace their presence here to the turmoil or oppression of another time and another place.

I remember some Filipino jokes about Filipino freedom amidst American captivity : It is a known fact how difficult for Filipinos to migrate in this place they called " Land of Milk and Honey ", a paradise to realize some personal dreams. Hence, after many years of independence, Filipino jokers blame our brave heroes that Philippines did not become one of the wings of the United States like Japan and Vietnam. That it would be nice to go in and out of this country without having fears of being denied of entry and worst is to undergo the " Special Security " before you can step outside the U.S.A airport.

Well, I think I'm still proud being independent from the Americans. I know how to speak my own tongue and speak their tongue too at the same time. I'm proud being "Pinay". I know that I can make my own way UP here in my own time and in God's time too.

Vietnam have moved far beyond their refuge origins and become successful economic and political player in US society.

It would be nice to hear also that Philippines have moved far beyond their freedom from American colonization and become successful economic and political player in US society :)(: